Simplify-ed

Small act brings impact

2009-07-28T01:29:00.003+08:00

You may be wondering why am I using this as my blogging topic today. Well, I was once impacted by a small act in my life.

Many of you guys may see the new project launched by SMRT regarding the Priority Seats in MRT. That was the way to make people realized there are people who needed the seat more than we do. I wonder if they will ever implement this in the Buses as well. It's a way to 'prompt' self-centered people to give up the seats when necessary. For me, I will try to imagine those seats were invisible. I will try my best to give up my seats to someone who needed it more than I do even if I wasn't sitting on the Priority seats. I am not perfect, so sometimes I failed too :D

This begun more gossips in the STOMP forum. Many more photographs were taken regarding ungracious Singaporeans not giving up their seats to elderly or pregnant women even if they are sitting on the Priority seats. Therefore, many Singaporeans gave up their seats 'consciously' because they are afraid their photos may appear out of nowhere in the STOMP forum.

What I want to encourage Singaporeans is that, don't give up seats by obligations! But give up seats out of love :D Because people do appreciate it!

Well, way before the project was launched, someone impacted my life :D

I sprained my ankle. I remembered it clearly that one of my secondary teacher gave me free tickets to watch Happy Feet in The Cathay. So despite the pain, I went there with my friends (I only remember Jermaine? ._.). I was wearing jeans and my Cross Trainer New Balance sport shoe. On the way home, I limped to the bus stop which was far away. My ankle hurts every step I walked. I boarded the bus 190 and it was packed with people. I was disappointed because I really needed a seat. I can feel that the condition of my leg was deteriorating already. It hurts even more each time I added a little more pressure onto my leg while standing because the bus was jerking. Jermaine tried to get a seat for me. I think because of that, there's this lady, young & pretty, saw it. I think she saw everything. So she told Jermaine I think and Jermaine asked me to go over and sit.

I may be young, not a kid but at least so much younger than the lady who gave her seat up for me. I am not handicap, neither am I an old lady or pregnant. Nobody noticed I injured my leg because it is not obvious with my jeans covering my legs. But! She gave up her seat for me.

I've given up more seats before someone given up her seat for me. That feeling was.. Loved. That lady didn't smile at me, but I can tell she really is kind hearted :D She stood still amongst the other passenger without grabbing any hand grips because it was really very packed. She can balance herself very well. By her posture, I can tell she's someone who dance :D She impacted & inspired me.

I didn't thank her continuously, I merely gave her my surprised look or managed to stammer a 'thanks'. I think that's the normal reaction you will get from people you offered your seats to.

But remember! I was impacted although I didn't say it. Therefore, you cannot judge if someone took your seats/action for granted or not. Don't give up your seats with obligations, give it up with love. Notice people around you, small act really impacts life.

I like this sentence still:
Carve your name on hears, not on marble.

Be blessed people! (:

Lord, thank You.

Busy Busy!

2009-07-25T01:51:00.003+08:00

Finally Blogger has recovered from its stupidity! I can upload pictures and blog as per normal :D

I am super busy! I thank God for the quarantine up til Monday! Because I can 'skip' lessons today without being mark down for attendance! I've taken 'leave' from my tuition kid so that I can concentrate on my work! Work Work Work!

Nevertheless, I am still looking forward to serve tomorrow! :D

I've finished studying & revising for my FMA exam this coming Tuesday. I started this early because I know I don't have the weekend to do so. I will be attending church and cellgroup as per normal :D

UCCD project is FINALLY done. Seriously hard work from Jerry & Jess, because they edited and did the compilation! :D thanks guys! & not forgetting our group members, for submitting their work on time for Jerry & Jess to edit and compile! :D

I am gonna start working on my UCCD PowerPoint slides for my part soon after I blogged! :D

I feel so 'whole' now you know. Because I've gotten myself a new black pen and a black refill for my exam on Tuesday :D I am like, less burdened! How can all these small details take away such a big burden, you will ask? You should approach a perfectionist and ask them too. I don't know myself either! I like things in place. Things out of place can mess my whole brain up X_X

I need to start on my RWPS report soon!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANDY DAJIEJIE!

Lord, take me thru! Let me shine in those impossible time :D

Quarantined!

2009-07-23T22:43:00.003+08:00

Firstly, I hate blogger right now. They seriously have alot of problems. Right now they have this stupid alignment problem which gives me no option buttons at all, and thus, I am UNABLE to post a desired photo today :(
I wanna own my own domain soon, with Wordpress as a host. I like Wordpress or Livejournal. They give professional layout. But it also means that I cannot design my own skin, unless I have time to explore what's more than HTML. Maybe PHP? haha! I can at most design my own banner? That's a headache! Because I ain't a designer myself. I understand that Kai can only help me to a certain extent. Sigh!

I need a breather! I have too many things on hand! ahh! :(
RWPS presentation & report. UCCD presentation & report. SSM presentation & report. GEMs Film Appreciation presentation.
MR, QA & FMA exams. I hate it when tutors kept giving assignments instead of revisions leh! :(
I haven't started my RWPS, which I think it's very jialat. I've planned to do it tomorrow, I hope I can finish the 15 pages report. I will continue to revise my FMA tomorrow also. I've done my SSM part, and I am going on to UCCD after blogging.

I can do ALL things thru Christ who strengthens me!

Back to topic, I am quarantined! By the school. The whole lecture group received a quarantine letter from the school. There's no school tomorrow and I am happy because.. Friday is the most tedious day ever! 6 lessons from 8am to 5pm with only 1 hour break. Sometimes I can die from exhaustion.

We're supposed to be quarantine from Monday til next Monday, but God knows they only give us the quarantine letter TODAY! !@#$ Wah, if not I won't be so stressed up by those works. I need more TIME! :(

Okay lah! Back to UCCD. I need to push myself duper hard le!

Lord, as I walk thru the valley of difficult times, Your staff and Your rod, they comfort me :D

Food for thought

2009-07-19T23:16:00.006+08:00

I just woke up a few minutes ago. I had this weird dream I couldn't not figure out. I am quite affected by it cos I usually don't remember dreams, but this time I did, and it's like 'tangible' haha.

Okay, *shake off the weird dream*

I received this email from Mikki, it was actually from Pastor Zhuang and she forwarded to us. I was really blessed after I read it, I want to thank the writer that wrote to the newspaper (:

Why Go To Church?

A Church goer wrote a letter to the editor of a newspaper and complained that it made no sense to go to church every Sunday.. "I've gone for 30 years now," he wrote, "and in that time I have heard something like 3,000 sermons. But for the life of me, I can't remember a single one of them. So, I think I'm wasting my time and the pastors are wasting theirs by giving sermons at all."
This started a real controversy in the "Letters to the Editor" column, much to the delight of the editor. It went on for weeks until someone wrote this clincher:

"I've been married for 30 years now. In that time my wife has cooked some 32,000 meals. But, for the life of me, I cannot recall the entire menu for a single one of those meals.. But I do know this ... They all nourished me and gave me the strength I needed to do my work. If my wife had not given me these meals, I would be physically dead today. Likewise, if I had not gone to church for nourishment, I would be spiritually dead today!" When you are DOWN to nothing.... God is UP to something! Faith sees the invisible, believes the incredible and receives the impossible! Thank God for our physical AND our spiritual nourishment!

As I was reading the first paragraph where the random church goer wrote about his stand and thoughts, I agreed to it. There was this random day where I flipped through the old sermon book that I really wanted to complete badly when I was back to church after I backslided (Of course I've already completed), I realized that I don't remember sermons that used to motivates me so much. But as I continued reading the second paragraph where a random writer replied, I am really blessed. God is speaking something to me (:

Be blessed guys! Instead of forwarding to everyone in my mailbox, which I don't normally do it, I shall post it up here so that people who I do not have email would be blessed too! (:

P/s: Who says Christianity walk is simple?
P/P/s: Who says Christians are perfect people?

Lord, strengthen me!

Pen down thoughts

2009-07-17T18:41:00.003+08:00

I like to pen down thoughts virtually. Especially thoughts pen down in my blog are random topics that set me thinking for the day. I went back to my old blog that contained my past, and I realized that I don't write 'well' in the past. I used to twit even after my sister stopped twitting haha (: Okay, I don't twit now, I spell every word out individually now. That's a major change okay! :D

I like different topics. I like to write random topics. I like to relate my thoughts. I realized that by blogging my thoughts out helped me to express myself better in words. There is still come barrier in communicating face-to-face haha. I get nervous every time I speak to someone I ain't that close with.

I remembered the reason why I continued blogging is because someone once told me many are blessed by the encouragement in this blog. My life may be simple, yet complicated in some ways, but still I am glad that it is my story reaching out to others. Some times this blog might contain things people couldn't understand, therefore I've already opened up another blog to lock up some private posts :D Now, I can try to maintain this blog is a more positive manner! :D

Everyone is very shag now, honestly. Because of all those stupid projects and assignments piling up. Argh! 5 Major projects on hand now; SSM, RWPS, MR, GEMs & UCCD. Exams coming up in a month's time or so. I cannot handle my time alone now seriously. And this time I lifted it all up to God. He will give me the strength and wisdom I need. JIAYOU! :D

I am blessed, each day with God. Although my emotions are still like roller coaster at times, but I trust and have faith that, one day I will be able to overcome it totally and guide people out of it too! :D

Took a spiritual test by QiuYuan leh! I met up with her yesterday for a random and simple 'dinner' We bought each other an alphabet "A" hanging on our HP. Some catch up we did. I love the feeling of a 'new' friendship again :D I am gonna rebuild our friendship together with her.

My dominating spiritual gift is Pastor/Shepherd & my second is Serving :D Gonna discover more! :D

Good day, God bless!

Work & more Work

2009-07-14T23:27:00.003+08:00

3 Jobs to handle, 3 Major Projects piling up & Never ending homework. I think I don't need much sleep anymore :( I am going to rely on God's strength during this tough & stressful period. God has pulled me thru many of these major period, I am sure He will this time too. I am going to shine for God by my efforts! (:

I need time management. Therefore I won't be blogging much already. Haha. But do stay tune to the next updates! I appreciate people like Jess in my group, she really does all the detailed planning! (:

I need God more than ever now! I am still going to serve because as I make time for Him, He will double my time :D

Bye bye procrastination & Hello determination!

I like this sentence by Jeremy:
Stressed is just Dessert spelled backwards.
Therefore, after this stressful period, I have all the desserts coming in! Whee~ Someone ask me out for a bowl of dessert soon okay! (: Gonna store many kitkats with me already!
Have a break, have a Kit Kat.

Lord, increase my capacity & my reliance on You.

Deep in thoughts

2009-07-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

I like to think when I am alone. I am not being Emo today although I trained back at night when the sky is dark again. Jazz smsed me and asked me to meet him at CCK station, and I smiled because someone is there to accompany me home once again. I don't like the darkness but I like being alone sometimes (: He showed me some tricks and taught me 2. Thanks dude (: Now I am 'equipped' to make my tuition more interesting for Natalie :D

Karen gave me a call this morning when I skipped RWPS. She said Daniel wants to employ me to help him do some calling. Another job coming in. This time I am following script again, reminds me of those days in Prudential doing cold calling haha. Well, I accepted it. Thank God that He gave me another opportunity to learn to save again. Looking at my 2009 Resolution again, I am gonna achieve that one more this year, praying hard.

So much thoughts for me. 3 jobs in my hand. I want to learn to balance everything. I want to be able to handle things that are already in my hand, then ask God for more to increase my capacity. I think that's the way to work it out too. I don't know why, but I am so looking forward to serve this week again. I am gonna take zone if nothing goes wrong. I hope that excitement isn't short lived. I am going to carry it :D

Things that are already in my hand are Study Group, Collection of Prayer needs, Taking care of members while Mikki sits with the leaders, Contact card for G12S2D, Birthday card for Clarabelle, Songsheet for Cellgroup, Meeting members & new friends up etc. I want to not only help out in things, I want to do it well, give in my best. I want to learn to be patient, and then Mother Theresa came into my mind. I want to LOVE. I want to live my life for God & His people fulling His purpose. So many thoughts.

Many have found their purposes. I want to know mine too. I prayed and spoke to God to come and reveal that purpose to me. I told Him to open doors of opportunities to lead me to His purpose for me. Everyone has a purpose in life, what's mine? I am inspired by many stories told by others, when will it gonna be me sharing with others about mine? I then randomly smsed Mikki telling her that I want to impact lives. I am going to start it by those people that God placed around me (:

Whenever I stood in great heights, I aim far. I see far and I dream big. I want to sing, I love to sing. I want to learn how to sing someday when given a chance. I want to learn how to sing in my whole lifetime.

I shared with Jazz about another problem of mine, which I won't be blogging here. But I hope I can find peace in that struggle, God can help me I know (:

Can I make a difference?

Lord, show me

A Guitar Start

2009-07-11T21:34:00.003+08:00

Back home, it's the night again, and the emoness came back again. Thanks Ting for accompanying me today. Like literally, because she trained to church and trained back home. Love you (:

Had a bad diarrhea this morning. I thought I will be late to get the formal top from Wanxiu. But I still managed to reach church before her haha. Thanks Wanxiu for bathing my daLe! DaLe still needs the sun to dry herself right now. But it's night time, no sun :( I am looking forward to payday because I want to get myself a formal top (: I bought myself a new tag that I can wear it around my neck, no more pinning the usher tag on my top. It was A.R Bernard service today, so the ushers need to dress formally. Wanxiu lent me her top, and Jun lent me her flats. I think today's dressing is super not me. But I don't look too bad on it haha. Jovian said I slimmed down leh! I told him because today's top is not the usual baggy ones (: At least, another step out, and I am proud of myself. *pat pat*

I like the above picture. It's like Wanxiu shared with me during the meeting on Thursday. It was a simple illustration of spiritual walk with God, but yet a straight to the point one :D Once you start jogging, you might have alot of energy to run at a faster pace. Sometimes, you maintain at a consistent one to keep moving. However, you will soon reach a point where you feel tired or exhausted. But! You shouldn't stop. Because once you stop, you need double or even triple more energy to start again. It is very true. I am now still at faltering love with God, quite shaky, but still I am trying to balance it :D

I want to serve again. I want to be on fire. I remembered what LiZhi used to tell me when she was my I/C during ushering. She said, treat every ushering opportunity a chance to outdo yourself compare to previous time. Today I was only a Internal Traffic person. But I stepped out of my comfort zone to greet and direct boldly the congregations towards the flow I am told. I felt so happy when I succeeded. This is just a small act, small achievement, yet it's something to be joyous about :D Thank God!

On fire again. Felt it burning within me. What should I do to keep the fire burning? Hmmm.

I want to take zone on the next usher duty, I will let Wanxiu know about it. I hope I can do it. There's never a right time to anything, it's how you seize that opportunity and grow. The more I think I can't, the more I should do it. Even if I fail and blame myself again, it's just a learning point. Okay, I am back to Ushering :D It is a ministry that will mold me.

I want to get to know my team mates better. So I think I wanna initiate to suggest an outing for the upcoming ones. Lord, give me ideas okay! So I can tell Wanxiu. Okay, jiayou KY! Remember your decisions right now.

I realized I can be 100% myself in Church, although I am not yet like that. But I should try to open up myself even more. Why not? Because Church is the training ground to train people and send them out in the market place to shine for God. Comdemations should not take place in church, instead, encouragement should birth forth. Okay, Lord please enlarge my capacity so that I can love people more and be more patient with everyone! (:

I love guitar! I wanna learn! :D I want to be more zai! :D

A Guitar start! (:

I need a larger capacity to contain more things. I need to learn to love 100%, learn to be patient and learn to be interested in people's life. I wanna stop judging and learn to be forgiving. I need super lots of peace inside of me. I don't want aim too high then drop too hard. Instead, I wanna see the ending line of the molding process.

Testimonies to be shared tomorrow with cellgroup. I always look forward to sharing testimony because I would have a chance to speak up more and conquer this barrier in me. Looking forward! :D

Samsam would be starting to lead Praise and Worship, jiayou sam! :D

I would not be where I am 3 years down the road. Jiayou KY!

Lord, make me strong

I need No one

2009-07-10T23:20:00.008+08:00

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Fellowship

2009-07-10T01:03:00.003+08:00

Awesome day spent! I was quite Emo when I got back my QA results. Not because I did really badly, but because compared to the class, I did quite badly. But nevertheless, I appreciate Shenny for smsing me and cheering me up! :D

I was looking forward to meeting Wanxiu, I don't know how it will be like, because it's our first individual meeting, I ain't sure if there really is a topic for us to flow. But I tried my best to talk to her, and somehow, things just flow haha. I was considering the whole day in school whether I should pass Wanxiu the card I did for her. I didn't do it well, because I am not an arty person, but well, I tried my best :D

Wanxiu then decided we should go Sakae Sushi for dinner because I never been there for a meal before. She says she'll bring me around. And she really spent alot of money on that meal you know, like almost $50. Okay, maybe not alot for her. I felt bad, but appreciative too :D

Had a great time sharing alot of things. I passed Wanxiu the only $12 I had in my wallet, but she insisted that I keep $2. In the end, I managed to persuade her to keep it. I mean, compare to the amount she paid, it's not alot. So we decided to go to starbucks at Central :D On the way, we found $2 on the ground! Wanxiu then joked that if I gave her $50 instead, maybe I will pick up a $50 note haha! But that $2 note is exactly the same as the one I gave her.

Jazz came to join us after that. Wanxiu then browsed through the 2009 Resolution with me and drew up a mind map with the ~~soviet~~SERVIETTE, really creative I would say. The mind map is the first picture on top :D So we had a promise to be fulfilled on December 2009.

Quality time spent. I would say it's really different and nice. Totally what I didn't expect from her. She told me her stories (I love to listen to stories) and I really admire her courage! :D When she told me I can start serving as internal traffic again and help out with offering at the zone I am sitting, I felt this instant peace in my heart. I know that's exactly what I want. I feel stress thinking about serving zones right now, but to start from scratch is really that 'thing' that I needed. God is awesome :D I think He is speaking through Wanxiu today :D

Jazz accompanied me to send Wanxiu to hougang mrt and we trained back! :D We then found another $1 coin at Bishan Mrt! AHH! Miracles does happen! :D God is true! :D $3 blessing! Gonna have breakfast with Jazz on Saturday! :D

I love this joyful and peaceful feeling inside of me. No longer indecisive of anything right now. That peace made me on fire for God once again. I think God planned everything, like today :D Thanks Wanxiu! :D

Back on track. Gonna start serving again, gonna continue bible study again. God will help me with time management! :D

Lord, thank You for placing 2 wonderful leaders in my life :D

Friendship

2009-07-09T00:23:00.002+08:00

I am meeting Wanxiu today, at 730pm City Hall. I am excited :D

I've been saving up, eating lesser everyday so that today's dinner would be a good one. And I don't like the scenario where money is an issue again, therefore I asked her for the budget like an aunty just now ._.

I think I shouldn't go there empty handed. So I am meeting Mad up tomorrow to do QA homework, whereas now is the time I shall concentrate on Wanxiu's 'thing'. Hope it will be simple and nice :D

I've topped the class for FMA last term with a score of 90. Not that bad, but a little careless mistakes. I thank God for everything that He has answered my prayers. Indeed He is faithful. I am worried for QA and MR's result, but nevertheless still praying for peace in my heart. Praise the Lord.

Carve your name on hearts, not on marble.

I like this sentence still. Chatting with Jerry, and I realized there's 2 first time in his life I've created an impact on it. I am thankful for that :D I want to really do something for everyone, something that is special to everyone, so that I am carving my name on their hearts, and they will feel loved. I love this feeling, so joyful :D

I really appreciate 2 people in my class that God placed that I am able to communicate to, Chloe & Maddy :D Poly life ain't that bad anyway.

Had a great time chatting with Jazz just now. And I've decided to use this blog to post happy stuffs and I am going to create another blog just to post those useless emo stuffs. Which in this way, won't affect people's emotion just because of mine. Not a bad idea :D

I am beginning to appreciate quality time.

End of blog post, commence of surprise! :D

Lord, be the window that will show me different views.

可不可以爱我 - 卢学睿

2009-07-08T14:09:00.002+08:00

This song is really superb! Although the singer 卢学睿 is not handsome uh X_X

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军

为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我快乐还是寂寞

I like the sentence in red, how true.

Emo

First Love

2009-07-08T00:14:00.002+08:00

I have a long post today, so be prepared for a long post today. I hope that you will understand if you choose to read on. The sentence below is not to test you.
But, only read on because you care and wants to :D

I was reluctant when Mikki asked if I want to attend Leader's Meeting with A.R Bernard. I was turned off when Wanxiu smsed me to ask if I would like to serve. I admit I am really not doing well right now. Things turned me off easily and I've already prepared my heart not to even turn up for service this weekend. Because I have assumed that I won't be able to understand what A.R Bernard will be preaching. I recalled I used to attend a service with him maybe a year or two back, and I fell asleep I think. So, I was really reluctant.

I asked Mikki if it was opened for members to go, because if it is, I would go (for the sake of attending I guess). Her reply shocked me, she said for good members. And I was really surprised because I know that Mikki knows that I am not doing well right now, at that very moment. She asked me not to doubt myself. It touches me, because someone still believes in me, therefore I decided to go, and I went.

I tried hard to concentrate during Praise and Worship today. I thought I could press in to God. But I couldn't. To stand there and sing to Him, with all those actions I used to do, is all so fake. I browse across the whole hall, it was so packed. People with no seats and people who are still walking in. I know at that point of time I was separated from God, nothing moved me. 10mins of prayer, I stoned there, looking around, like a new friend, my heart hardened, I was numbed.

I thought today's preaching would be sermon on how to build a church and such, all those administrative stuffs which I think I couldn't care less. But it wasn't, to my surprise.

Whatever that A.R Bernard spoke today, it summarizes the past 1 year of my Christian walk, that was how powerful it is. To that point I realized, I had decided to forgo my first love with God, not because I lost it. Every Christian goes through many ups and downs. All these are just a small process if you see it in the picture from God. But it is also not easy to overcome it when you're really in that situation.

I realized the past 1 year of my walk with God is only Compliance. This meant that although I was very active in the cellgroup and such, it was just because I wanted to be involved. I admit, I was really on fire for God, to catch the vision in Mikki, my leader, but somehow along the line, I fail, many times. I want to be committed, to keep running with the vision. But although I kept praying, I don't understand what the church is going through.

The thing that kept me going was new things that I wanted to learn from Mikki in the cellgroup. I was joyful when Mikki added more task for me, teaching me new things, learning right from wrong. I enjoy that process in getting things right. But when it has been things that I've been helping, somehow it has become a routine.

Everything begins with a

Revelation

That brings forth Inspiration & Expulsion power of new affection that leads to:

Formalization

And with mighty power it moves on to:

Institutionalization

But when it hardens it becomes:

Crystallization

Crystallization is what I am going through right now, and the only way that I can be back again, is to go back to my first love and begins with a new revelation that will brings new affection for me to be on fire for things once again. At that very moment, I realized how important is quiet time with God, building relationship with Him.

I want to move on from Compliance to Commitment.

Anyway, whatever that A.R Bernard speaks today, it spoke right into my heart. But I wasn't touched by God at that very moment, I know I want to seek Him again in the pace I can maintain. But I was thankful that I attended the leader's meeting, and I think, it wasn't that difficult to understand after all. I would like to attend more leader's meeting in the future if I am given a chance :D

I am meeting Wanxiu this Thursday. I think I am beginning to like her as my leader right now. But I know I don't want to open up to people again, because I don't believe in genuine friendships anymore. I don't want to invest in friendships anymore. Anyway, she's the first leader in my whole life that says that we're friends, that alone is sufficient for me right now already. I couldn't believe that first ever meeting we had at Bugis Mac, it only make me laugh right now to think of it. I don't know why I initiated to ask her out, but I hope this Thursday will be quality time spend. God bless.

I am thankful for Mikki in my life, she's the one that sees me through those thick and thins. I like to act tough, seriously, because I don't like to show my weakness. I might accept things with confidence and finish it faithlessly. But my weakness is shown to Mikki inevitably because she's my leader I think. She's the one who walked with me for a year already, thanks Mikki :D

I decided to turn up for service this week, because A.R Bernard is coming! :D

Really need to thank Greg for teaching me guitar! I am beginning to love to play guitar that often. Gonna strum and strum and sing a long :D

Guitar FTW :D

Lord, when will I be on my feet again?

Mind Games

2009-07-06T20:52:00.005+08:00

Pissed with blogger again. I don't know what's wrong with not being able to upload photos. Now I need a host to upload my picture ._.

I don't like mind games. But I realized the place where people plays mind games the most is my church. They always like to assume things, assume what others are thinking and uses their own way to settle problems. Yes means yes, no means no, there's no need to assume people are lying and be stubborn about it.

They are not untrustworthy. They just like to keep things from themselves. They don't often show you the whole picture because they think it's unnecessary. But who can work without knowing the whole story? I have to always adjust myself to suit the situation, if it happens to fail, I am the one to be blamed, is that then necessary?

I don't like hidden purposes, I like everything to be explained, because I need explanations, I cannot work without knowing anything and what's happening.

I have enough of those mind games.

Is it them, or just me?

Lord, show me the way

Kite Flying

2009-07-06T10:41:00.003+08:00

I couldn't upload any photos yesterday, was so damn pissed with blogger. So I shall blog now since RWPS lesson is super boring haha!

W473 went to Marina Barrage yesterday with the unknown weather because Anyi has been praying for Sun and Mikki praying for Clouds. So the Sun and Clouds clashes and we had sunburn unknowingly too. Haha!

It was my first time flying kite. I've been accomplishing alot of my 'first time' by the Church/Cellgroup activities, it's a good news :D Something worth remembering for. Had mini sharing by Mikki yesterday. Sometimes I feel that even the words make sense or are powerful, if it's not a Rhema for you, it would mean nothing actually. Maybe, it will be a knowledge instead.

There is a sudden insecurity towards me and her. I think I would have difficulties opening up to her already. I don't like to feel this way, but I can't help it. Maybe genuine friendship will never happen.

Had steamboat with Alfie, Jazz Badi, Xuejun, XueTing, BOWEN and my sister yesterday! So surprised that Bowen made a trip down to my house just to return XueTing her birthday card. He bought cookies for us too. I miss him alot lah! :D Jiayou Bowen! :D We love you!

Slept early last night. This morning ain't that smooth going. I recalled checking the date of my Train concession that ends at 7 July. This is the 6th, but it ended. And I am unable to tap in with the insufficient funds. I couldn't top my card up with the wet notes I had in my wallet due to the rain yesterday. Wanted to take a bus to CCK instead, but the MaMa shop Indian guy asked me to buy things before he can give me change with a stupid reason like 'Don't have enough change' So I bought a packet of low quality tissue for 50cents. Damn day. Took 975 down to CCK to buy concession. And so, I was late for class ._.

Done with birthday cards! I think this batch is better than the last. Thanks Badi for chionging with me haha! :D

First day of the official first week of school, super bored. I need motivations! Ahhh!

I don't like mind games.

Lord, pull me through.

Money Maker

2009-07-03T22:26:00.001+08:00

I need this :D

Shag!

2009-07-01T22:32:00.003+08:00

Pissed with Blogger because I can't upload any photos. That's the super duper uber main reason why ain't I posting new posts up. This week is shaggy enough because of MST gah!

I need money, I want to change. Money money!

Birthday cards birthday cards! I am running out of idea.
Stupid MST, my brain juice is dry now.

Super shag I need sleep right now. Praying hard for last paper tomorrow!

Lord, pull me through!

Boredom

2009-06-27T01:12:00.004+08:00

Oh man, I like this picture from DeviantArt. It shows what I am doing at home recently, super bored. Sick & dying of boredom already. Okay, at least I did go down to BPP to get some stuffs just now. Urgh! I wish it is Monday already. Although got exam, but I can still get out! I need to break free! I promise myself not to cope up myself next time like this unnecessarily.

Okay, was reading a book by Dr. A.R Bernard. I think I borrowed it from Sherrie last time, but haven't return to her. It was because of the emotional turmoil I've been through that I want to be Happy. Happiness is a choice. I want to chose that choice I am given. That emotional break down caused me to have suicidal thoughts. I think I was already at the depressing boundaries. One more step I'll be in hell already. Those emotional tortures by the devils are not merciful at all. It was so bad, my pillow contains my tears every night. But hey, it's gone. At least for now it is. No more looking back.

I like this sentence. Carve your name on hearts, not on marble.
I was reminded by the sms I received from Chloe this morning. She said she wants to be part of my life. Then I realized, I want to make a difference in my life time. It is time I carve my name unto people's heart. So that at least that's the evidence that I am once alive. So no matter how tough situations may be, I will learn to be loving, to be patient. Because although I may not experience those greater love people might have, there are some people who don't have a chance to experience those love I am having right now. Christ loves us, so that we may love His people. So how great is love? Love has no boundaries, you will understand what I meant in your lifetime :D

Was looking through at the 9 spiritual gifts that we may each have one. I want to possess the gift of Faith. Then I realized Faith is like the basis of basics, you need Faith to do All things. You may not realized it. But I still feel that, to have Faith as spiritual gift, you need to have faith that you will have Faith. Therefore, Faith is not that easy like those we experience in our everyday life. I am making things very complicated. But that's how I think lah, I will pray about it haha! :D

I finished episode 22 of Black & White already leh! Then I realized it was a fraud lah! Episode 23 is the last last episode lor :( so now I will be waiting patiently for that episode so that all the truth will be out. You know I am so bored at home, that's my 3rd show for this short 3 weeks holiday. I think it's fated to be at home. Because I hurt my shin and I need to recuperate. Then now I am under quarantine, although it is not the official quarantine by MOH.

P/s: I am bored
P/P/s: I am super bored
P/P/P/s: I want to join Ace, Jazz & Ting to see bapok lah! :(

Lord, Faith.

Breathe Slow

2009-06-24T23:59:00.003+08:00

I've been watching this show since yesterday. Quite an IMBA show. Still catching up, finished episode 6 or 7 already. Instead of studying, I seriously have no motivation to study. But I have my own discipline, because I've left MR to study, which I am gonna take it easy too. Let me complete all my studies, I think that's the best way yet the most difficult one.

Been home since then. Copping up at home is seriously boring. Mikki text me to check if I am sick, I told her I am perfectly fine but sick of boredom already. Called Jeffrey up today again, because Jazz decided to have a new hair style. Going down to Zona Felice on Tuesday again. I wonder how is Jerry's hair right now hmmms.

Done with my quiet time. I am quite impressed with what God can do to me just like that. I am reading the word, medidating on it, and God can speak thru that with all the interpretation I've written down in a notebook. I think this time I can experience God in another way. Perhaps that is also because why I felt peace in my heart for my MST which is next Monday because the bible says:

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Matthew 6:33 NIV

Yup! That's it! What I am experiencing, just gonna keep on, keeping on with my studies, to shine for God. In every area of my life to shine for God, to use it for the glory of God :D

Today's quiet time's bible passage is what I've already known and taught in some way or another. But it is still refreshing because it acts as a reminder for me once again. I love the way it is :D

Well, gonna be strong and brave again. For the things that happened, I cannot rewind and redo it anymore, I shall leave it to God. Thousands apologies.

P/s: It is now 12.23am, adjusted time to let date show.
P/P/s: The weather is getting colder, what's with the sudden change?
P/P/P/s: It is really bored to stay at home. But thank God that Jazz, Jun and Ace came today :D

Lord, I will be submissive.

H1N1

2009-06-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

The picture above shows Influenza A (H1N1). Looks complicated but I also don't understand it. Okay, that's not the main topic haha! But it's so far yet so near.

My friend contracted H1N1, she's one of the 2 confirmed cases in RP. She'll be well! Now in TTS resting and feeling bored haha! Maybe I should call in and disturb her ._. Jerry said, it was once so far, but now so near, so scary. I was in direct contact with her last Saturday because we trained home. But I believe she only contracted when she went back to school the following week. Get well soon girl :D

MOH called me just now. I find it super classic. I don't find H1N1 very scary. Firstly, because it is only contagious and not that deadly, so far no death in Singapore. Secondly, my God will protect me so I am not afraid. I thought I should do a check up but my mum says there's no need currently. I might receive HQO (Home Quarantine Order) after they assess what I said about what happened. But I am to stay at home as much as possible and wear a mask when I am out. Super classic. Ting & Xin from RP need to be quarantine until 30th, poor thing leh haha!

My sister also need to stay at home this week and not go to school until Saturday. I think MOH is taking very precautionary Precaution leh. Anyi called 993 and went hospital for a check, Ting is waiting for parents to be back to call 993. Aiyo.

City Harvest is on news and website. Our church used $10,000 to buy hand sanitizer and 60,000 masks. Wah, so kuazhang leh. I think my friend is the first reported case for our church? I ain't sure, but it wasn't spread in our church itself, it was from RP lor X_X

I went through my worst emotional turmoil the past 2 days. I've gotten over it. I think I can be strong again. Actually I am not as strong as seen on the outside I guess.

Oh! I brought Jerry to Zona Felice for a haircut by Jeffrey today. A totally new cut, very nice, ah! Later fall in love with him jiu die. Just Joking! I told him his hair will distract me in class I think LOL! But he was happy with it :D Chatted and bought his dinner together. A day well spent too :D

Xin & I are webcaming now because we're bored.

P/s: I need to cancel every single plan this week to stay at home :(
P/P/s: i can't attend service this week :(
P/P/P/s: I will use the time to self study lor X_X

Lord, Jehovah Rapha!

Smile

2009-06-18T23:29:00.002+08:00

I want to make people smile, what Bowen said was right.
A genuine smile is priceless, I am sure everybody knows that.
But I think I've already hurt someone.
It doesn't matter to me, I hope we will still be friends, that's all.

Jiayou KY! :D

敗犬女王

2009-06-16T23:22:00.002+08:00

I AM SO TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH THIS SHOW! *SCREAMS*
I feel so loved (: Okay random bye!

Loved

2009-06-15T11:59:00.005+08:00

Back to blogging! I think I have much to say today :D Well, today ain't that fruitless a day, at least I got reasons to smile!

P/s: The time now is 12.41am, blog time adjusted to make date appear

Today ain't that boring. Jazz and Jun visited me days back :D Today Kai came to downgrade my desktop to XP from Vista. So pissed off because my parents and sister always expect me to take care of my desktop when it is my sister and daddy the one using the most. Urgh! So Kai saved the day again :D It is now running at a faster rate.

So Kai kept me accompanied from 11am to 630pm? Wow? LOL! I was so bored after that I went to nap leaving the hacks for restaurant city on ._.

Wanted to wake up at 11pm to off my laptop, but to my surprise, Mikki and gang came at 10pm haha! I was half asleep lah, but woke up because I am a light sleeper.

Thanks Mikki, Shenny, Anyi and XueTing for coming! (: Passed me a card and chicken essence! They laid hands and prayed for me. I really want to recover fast so that I can join them for service this week! :( Okay lah, God is my Jehovah Rapha, no illness is too big for Him! Amen :D

So helped Mikki do song hunt, now 46.3% is uploaded! Still waiting :D

I hope tomorrow will be a better day!

P/P/s: I kept sleeping because I want to see my leg healed fast! Ample rest!

Lord, Jehovah Rapha

{edit

It's 2.20am now and I've just edited my songlist. Feel like using back myflashfetish to make another playlist for myself. The reason why I always use background music is because I find player very twit. But right now, I don't wanna bother, I think the music are good.

Those are the 5 favourite songs I am listening presently.

Lastly, enjoy :D

{/edit

Rotting

2009-06-14T20:30:00.002+08:00

Aiyo, I've been rotting at home for past 2-3 days already! I need to go out of my house to smell the fresh air and see the green grass :( But I cannot. I cannot walk too much now, I am sad lah. I didn't go for service this week, I felt so alone, I am missing the people already :( Thank God Kai is free tomorrow to downgrade my desktop to XP so that it will run better. Ah, at least something to look forward tomorrow. I wonder how is things now for Mikki and the rest.

Restaurant City after Coffee Prince, Coffee Prince after Restaurant City. I am bored to death :( Honest speaking, this is the best time to study for MST, but I seriously got no feel for it. How bored am I? I can complete Sandy jie's blog even when I haven't been touching blogs for some time, this is how bored I am ._.

Used hacks for Restaurant City, not the one I used before because it was banned, but a hack that can always make my workers' stamina to 100% so that they kept working. Finally got 2 menu to level 10. But I am bored with this game already. I got so much money that I revamped the whole restaurant already, now money is still rolling in X_X

Wanted to go back maple, but account tio suspended GAH! So pissed. Lazy go suntec to recover also.

I think I better go and pray and study now :(

Lord, I want to study! :(

Recovering

2009-06-13T22:01:00.002+08:00

My leg is like pig trotter lah! Just a snap shot of it Haha! Didn't cast it because I didn't see western doctors, but instead it is bandaged by the sinseh, cool hor the sinseh haha! Okay lah, not as swollen as yesterday :D Thank God. Hopefully I can walk by tomorrow :D

Sprained my ankle 5 times, broken bones first time leh, other than my elbow which I long forgotten it, quite cool isn't it haha! Still painful :(

Faster Recover Leggy!

Restaurant City & Coffee Prince the whole day, i am rotting already :(

Thanks Jazz Badi and Jun for visiting me!

Mikki sent me MMS during service leh! I so touched! :D

Lord, You're my Jehovah Rapha

Bandaged

2009-06-12T15:52:00.002+08:00

I've hurt my lower shin of my right leg on Monday from the softball training. I thought I was brave enough to go for Inspire Faith! camp after that. Then I felt something amiss about my foot, I hardly could balance myself, that I realized the lower portion of my foot was super swollen. Received sms from 2 softballers during my stay in camp, and I told Mad I might quit softball for good. Instead of worrying how to get my shin healed, I was worrying how to answer to my parents.

P/s: I seriously don't like people who get on top of my determination and test it, because I am who I am, I seriously do not need you to come and tell me where I stand, or otherwise, where my determination stands. Because I have my leaving for my own good reasons. Unless you can put yourself into my shoe, I would welcome your opinion. Please do not act like as if you own, control or know me very well, thank you very much.

The softballers are getting their jersey soon, that made my mind went a little haywire, to stay or not. After much thought, maybe I should leave, for many reasons. I felt a little bad leaving Mad alone. But I guess she's getting used to the girls, I should not have my worries anymore. Soft ball wasn't bad, at least I get to know Valentin who is also from my lecture group. Haha, but I didn't see her before.

So I was super worried that I might break my bone. Looking at those swells, I kept trying to convince myself. Instead of being worried for me and encouraging me, my mum calls me stupid. She said I am stupid enough to know that I am prone to injuries and I insisted in playing sports. When the swell didn't seem to be better, I told my mum I want to visit a sinseh. But I got more scoldings from her.

I almost went to visit sinseh myself.

Then my daddy called home, and asked the condition of my leg. When I told him it wasn't better, he came home immediately and fetched me to the usual sinseh I normally go when I sprained my ankle.

So it was known that the outer layer of my bone is broken (that explains the excessive swellings). The sinseh then commented that if the ball were to hit a little harder, my shin bone would have been totally broken. No matter what, Thank God ah!

Thanks for those who consistently kept praying for me (:

Going to be at home for 2 days! :( Cannot walk or move around.

Lord, thank you

break free

2009-06-10T18:42:00.004+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME!

I am back from camp. So tedious and tiring. For the first time, I really was disappointed because I was very looking forward to the camp. The planning, the committee, the leaders, the games, the activities were fun! But the people there weren't so.

So disappointed that everyone is too sticky to their own group of friends/CG mates. I really rarely have a chance to talk to them. I wanted to leave the campsite so badly on the first day when Mikki called in. Her words 'can you be more understanding?' made me think twice. I seriously would just walked off like that. For the 2 hours when I reached the school, I was wandering about in the campus. Sitting anywhere with tears already in my eyes. Emotions arose again and I freaking hate it. There's simply too much hatred and loneliness in me. Nobody bothers about me. When leaders or committee members walked past me and asked why aren't I joining in the game, I simply smiled and told them I was late and don't have a group. When SK told me that his group was too full, and asked me to find others, I was seriously so sad lah.

To leave or not? That suppressed feelings really sucks. I don't know what's the factor, but I made an approach to XYZ and told her I need a team because I was late, she called Jasmin, and I am in Team 4. Although I didn't know anybody, except for those people around my age, I felt a sense of belonging for the first time. Nobody cares about my existence. So I didn't bother about myself either. I joined them silently I didn't talk much.

Mikki couldn't sleep with me as promised, because she have too much things on hand. I see her flying around everywhere to help out, I wonder if she's tired. I tried to be strong to sleep alone. Thank God that I am able to sleep and think nothing much about it because I was so freaking tired. When I saw Wendy, one of the leaders, caring for her members and talking to them, I missed Mikki really much. I guess I was strong to be left alone, and left Mikki alone too (:

The thing that kept me alive was those sessions where we could find God's presence. The thing that made me stay was those sessions, not the people. I thank God for that. The second night was superb. Zenearth wasn't there :( but we went dancing on the floor. Where Edwin and Pastor Zhuang were being carried by the crowd. HAHA. That session was crazy. When Anyi and I were being brought to the second row by the usher, I felt intimidated by the leaders. Nevertheless, I was myself when it comes to praise and worship.

The condition of my leg worsened and I break camp earlier today. Reached home at 11 and went to rub my leg with medication oil. Napped for 6hours and am up already.

I promised myself that I won't join Youth camp alone anymore to torture myself.

p/s: I am not ranting, just typing my thoughts and feelings
p/p/s: I am quitting softball already
p/p/p/s: My leg really hurts.

I am gonna study hard for MST.

Lord, embrace me

Classic!

2009-06-01T22:21:00.002+08:00

I chanced upon JiaHui today, outside MLT 10, sitting alone, so I approached her and told her I could keep her accompanied until her friends arrived. So that's what I did. To make the whole conversation more interesting, I took out my cute little DaLe & Sam's Cheapchip and lent it to her. Okay, she went laughing non-stop playing with it. So Jerry joined us after some serious talk with Andrik! Both of them like DaLe & Cheapchip so helped them take photo! :D Too bad! Don't have Alvin, if not I will be in the photo also :( And we took the train back home together! Wow, first ever trip with JiaHui, something precious for me to remember too! Had fun chatting, first time chatting in real life together too :D

Last week of school! One more project to go! MR does not stands for Marketing Research anymore, it stands for Madeline Rocks! But.. does Madeline really Rocks? Stay tuned to find out more! HAHA :D

I've got heat rashes all over my body. The worst part is actually my back :( itchy itchy scratchy scratchy, up and down my backy backy :( I bought myself powder, and I am applying it everyday after bath, it does help a little, I hope my condition will improve. Stupid weather! I WANT RAIN AHHH! :(

Oh! I interestingly took a test from facebook, and I found it to be quite accurate :D
What is my dark side? The result is actually Quiet (I thought it to be like hot temepered maybe?)
Your dark side is soft and recessive. It is rarely visible. Usually you are the only one hurt by your dark side, because you keep to yourself in your darkest hour.

Another classic thing to blog about! Wanted to play restaurant city like weeks ago? or maybe months back, but wanted to find cheat first before I do so. I don't like playing honest games that are popular, because it only makes it more competitive. So I went online to find the cheat for restaurant city today, and the clever me managed to actually make it work for my com. Like finally? Haha. So Jerry was saying that now must faster cheat, later like Pet Society half way bug solved then cannot cheat le. So I started restaurant city today and my current level is now 24, with total cheat of 180k. Used 140k to revamp my restaurant. Now my whole com is lagging cos of the cheat engine :( Flash Player 9 sucks too!

Okay, that's all for today's classic updates! :D

Lord, embrace me

Holidays

2009-05-31T21:46:00.004+08:00

3 weeks of holiday is near again. Time flies and it is already past term 1. I hope I've achieve something. At least life in poly right now ain't that bad. Not as bad as year 1. I still miss year 1 thou, there are some classmates I really wished we're still together in the same class. But people grow up, and things always change.

So what's my plan for holiday? I always get things planned before hand, so that things would be more or less smoother.

A man’s heart plans his way,
But the LORD directs his steps.
- Proverbs 16:9 NKJV

I always believe in the above verse. This week is already scheduled in my heart, and I shall walk as planned. Many people say I am inflexible, well, this is who I am :D But of course, I am learning how to be flexible too!

This holiday, there are many things I want to achieve! Thinking of it makes me excited already. But I wonder how will it go, no worries because I have God.

30mins run everyday
a new haircut before school
more than prepared for MST

3 things to achieve during the 3 weeks! It won't be as tough. I pray for determination! I need to lose weight! And also this motivation with Mad too. We are going to lose weight. I hope I will be able to get a positive remark from Mad when school reopens.

Somehow, I became very earthly. Not that I don't want to be relevant to everyone, just that I built too much expectations out of earthly stuffs. I should have place my expectations on God, for He is perfect, rather than people around me whom are not. School is fun, but yes, it is painful too. I am learning how to let go and let God. Rest assured people, because I am perfectly fine in this imperfect world. My God is mighty, He is able.

I always hold on to this sentence, so I always want to give praise to God for everything, even those little ones that may not seem significant at all.

People never know God is all they need, until God is all they have.

God is all I need.

Very happy chatting with HuiTing doremifa yesterday you know! She asked me whole loads of questions about Christianity. I am bringing her to my church one day when her holiday starts! I hope she will find a church of her choice. This brings me to my next point. God just reminded me that, ex-CCKSS revival is still possible, and I shall not be disheartened!

Lord, I love you

Song of Solomon

2009-05-30T10:11:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone! I am back to blog :D

School was hectic yesterday but the greatest event that didn't make me regret was the Church Wide Bible Study with Pastor Kong. Pastor Kong decided to teach again after 21 years on the book of Song of Solomon.

Initially I felt very dry. Felt that I am dragging my feet to Expo. Felt that distance was a problem. But the energy that miraculously brought me there afterall was the expectations I have, for this book I have never understood a single sentence before. And I was reminded by what Anyi used to share, that when you set aside time for God, He will multiply your time. And I truly believe in that. Some of the greatest examples I have are Shaun and Pastor Kong.

Was amazed. Pastor Kong taught us verse by verse. From SOS 1:1 - 2:7. I've got my revelations of course yesterday night. Many of my doubts were cleared. I give praise to God for that.

Song of Solomon is a book splitted into 5 parts. Yesterday we touched on the first part which was Initial Love. It was then made known that Initial Love is not talking about a new believer who just received salvation. It is, however, talking about the backsliders that had already lost their first love. I am one of them.

This verse struck me:

Do not look upon me, because I am dark,
Because the sun has tanned me.
My mother’s sons were angry with me;
They made me the keeper of the vineyards,
But my own vineyard I have not kept.
- Song of Solomon 1:6 NKJV

That it speaks TOTALLY my situation right now. Feeling very dry, but I kept serving, I kept going forward. Sooner or Later I am going to be dried up, and I really was. I've sinned greatly which this sin I am only going to make known to God and not anyone else.

Leaders can only teach us and guide us to God. But I want to make the advance step to find God myself too. I know Christianity is a process, there are many new things to be learnt.

Then another sentence by Pastor Kong spoke into my heart once again. And I finally get to understand. God relates Relationally, God does not work with formula! But the silly me kept wanting to find a perfect formula to work with, so that I am serving as a routine and I won't make mistakes. Pastor Kong said, it is easy if God works with formula, but He does not. I totally agree with that. I want to be the anointed one, someone that flows with the Holy Spirit and depend on God for the way. Someone who does not depend on my strength alone. Someone who can discern right and wrong. I want to be someone like that one day. I don't know what's the ultimate way God wants me to go. But if He wants me to go anywhere, I will obey.

I teared upon a song that Pastor Kong first wrote. We sang as a church yesterday. I am going to find that song and change my blog song :D I really teared. God still loves me, despite the mistakes I made, my foolishness, my stubbornness, my ignorant, and whatever.

Instant Peace I felt. I know it's God. That peaceful feeling is so precious. I felt that I am on the right track again, back to serving God.

Ministry is not a problem. The problem is that you've lost your first love.

I am back to the cell group. I will come back to Usher Ministry soon.

Lord, give me peace whenever my heart trembles.

Stepping Stones

2009-05-28T23:04:00.003+08:00

3 Reports and 1 Presentation for this Term is finally coming to an end. Next week is the last week of school, and my class is busy staying up late and burning midnight oil to finish projects. AH! Tedious. I wonder how would Term 2 be! :( But still, can't wait for holidays to come! (:

Was done with SSM on Tuesday, and we conquered 1 Report and 1 Presentation. Tomorrow is the submission of our UCCD Report, and next week our MR Report. I think we shall chiong all the way non stop liao.

Finally done with UCCD. Took me 3 days to complete the questionnaires and Jess took a day today to finish editing and compiling, great work Jess! Like working with Jess and Jerry :D So the next SSM project group will have the 3 of us again! :D Looking forward!

Printing to be done soon. Can't wait to finish printing and binding our report tomorrow. Once the report is submitted to Mr Kenneth's office, we shall say Bye Bye forever to it! (:

Great work out at GYM today with Mad. I think I am beginning to find my momentum back in sports. I need more time than others to achieve the same thing. But it's alright, cos I have God with me, always. He shall protect me always.

Dizzy spells didn't go away. I wonder what's wrong with me! :(

Ending my tuition job next Sunday. I will miss Natalie alot, and her mum's cooking too! :(

End of term, work, assignments, start of holiday and MST!

And yeah, I want to end the emotional war inside of me. I need to break free, I am alright already! (:

SOS tomorrow! Can't wait! (:

Lord, peace You leave with me

enough!

2009-05-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

I NEED A BREAK.

why can't things be in place for once?
why do I still need You for?
when my life is in a mess and I can't feel any changes
can You feel my pain? I kept trying, but I kept failing
sometimes I just want to end my life like that, do you understand?
I kept suppressing my feelings, I can't breathe anymore
I want to give up, can I?

I Don't Like Those Fake Smiles
Please Take It Away.

UCCD Outing!

2009-05-24T23:14:00.005+08:00

Today was UCCD outing with Jerry, Jeremy, Jess, XianFeng & Bukit! :D Wasn't a fruitful one thou. Those people were in the Hindu Temple were alright, just one especially fierce one. Apparently we're supposed to bring our own tour guide ._. we don't have Indian Classmate with us lah. So we just took some shots at that area. While the prayers were starting, we were shooting jumping shots HAHAHA!

Then to ~~Thiong~~Tiong Bahru Plaza. The guys took so long to decide. Jess & I were kinda annoyed. Decided to chill out at Jeremy's condo eventually. The guys weren't in a mood to complete SSM. So shall leave that for tomorrow. I am gonna skip FMA lecture to finish it with Bukit :D

The picture above is me carrying 3 hunks! LOL! I am STRONG! :D Really. HAHAHA. Try me!

Good day! Shagged from projects. Gonna pull up my socks already! (But I always wear ankle socks how? ._.)

School tomorrow or not?

HAPPY 18TH ADVANCED BIRTHDAY CHLOE!

Lord, you've touched me once again.

Breathe

2009-05-22T23:58:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I need a breather, to be able to breathe once again. I am also a human, needs love, care and concern, space, grooming, obstacles that can make me grow, attention, study, and routine. I don't like to be left alone although sometimes I prefer being alone.

I am not EMO. I promise I won't post up EMO posts. Just need to take time off, to pace my speed, my heart, soul and mind to a slower pace, to that peaceful world. I would like to take a day's off to the beach, to listen to the wave, my own heartbeat, alone if I would ever have a chance.

I love to sing, I want to sing, singing is my passion though I know I may not be talented. I want to learn to play guitar, strumming as I sing, I love that feeling.

BREATHE IN HARD! Tomorrow will be a better day! :D

Lord, thanks for always being there.

Gymnasium & Prayer Meeting

2009-05-21T22:59:00.002+08:00

I use at least one hour to blog each day. Why? Because I always find pictures that best relate the situation happened that day. So before I go on and blog about what happened today, I shall credit an artistic website, probably already known by you guys, that I always grab pictures from. That is DeviantArt. Check it out guys, their photo shots are awesome :D

As the picture suggest, I went Gym today! With Mad once again. She had became my Gym patner in DBA14 :D And I also found a friend that can accompany me to MaoCe always - Sherry. That girl that looks like Samsam, and also always remind me about my MaoCe Friend, Eileen :D Decided to Gym more often. And also decided to do more workouts. I didn't succeed alot today, like I've lost my momentum. But I know I will build it back one day, just need to be discipline and hardworking. Like Mad keeps admiring XianFeng's leg lah. His legs are sexy, HAHA! Well-built. I wanna slim down, at least 10KG from my current weight, which I ain't sure and won't reveal.

School today was alright! The most classic thing happened again. Mr Andrew Lee likes to call out to me during Lectures I don't know why. I ain't attention seeking, come on man! Anyway, DBA14 rocks like MAD! Because I love the unity! Really, the bonds and the laughter. I wanna be the salt & light in class too.

The guy who was drunk earlier on Monday during FMA lecture actually apologized today during MR lecture. Aww, it took him alot of courage I suppose. Really admire his courage. I think most of us had already forgiven him :D

Then, it was the Prayer Meeting with the SP/NP VIBEZ! It was truly awesome! Was really impacted by what Bee shared today. I think it was super relevant and touching. XinYing led Praise & Worship for the first time in her life today too, to stand in the gap for YuZhen who was unable to make it today. It was awesome too! So surprised, but glad that she made it through! It will be your first, and definitely more that are coming! Jiayou XYZ! :D

Had a great chat with Bee, didn't know she stays one station away from me only! LOL! Super funny! We train back together.

I am laid back spiritually for a month or so already. It's time to gear up and move on once again!

Lord, make me an extraordinary ME that serve the extraordinary YOU!

once again

2009-05-20T23:02:00.003+08:00

So long didn't blog, I know everyone of you misses me! :D I know I know because I have telepathy with everyone of you :D

Okay, Shaun say, I should not blog unhappy things. It is not wise to repeat it to myself typing out and blog. So my post shall be happy ones, always I hope.

Somehow, I realized that they knew who am I already. Those weird stares, and those passing by, I can't help but always taking a look. But I know, from tomorrow onwards, I shall just be myself, my life shouldn't be bothered by them. And they should not be irritated by me, or even know who am I.

Back, and so, DBA14 went to E2Max yesterday. We had a drunken in lecture class too which make the whole commotion from the back coming. Whatever, E2Max was fun! :D Body #19 is scary I realized. HAHA!

For the first time I finish my homework all before hand. I shall sleep early tonight.

GYM tomorrow with Mad! Can't wait!

Lord, behold, I am ready to be back.

Growing up

2009-05-16T10:59:00.002+08:00

I had diarrhea this morning, when I woke up. Now, I am blogging before I make my way to church for Bible Study with Shaun. I foresee that I am unable to blog later, so might as well blog now.

Feeling much better after taking pills. But I really am praying hard that I can last throughout the service. I didn't take care of myself. But Xin's words appeared again, she asked me yesterday, so when are you going to start taking care of yourself? The usual response that I will give, and apparently I gave it yesterday, is I don't care.

But I don't like to suffer, so I was reminded by her words again. I think I wanna learn to take good care of myself from today onwards. I have been depending too much on pills to stop my diarrhea. People usually consume pills to stop diarrhea when they confirm they are having bad runs. However, because I am always having runs, I tend to consume it when I assume that I will be having runs soon. Just a slightest symptom of having runs, I will just casually pop those pills into my mouth. I guess I am being very paranoid. I always carry pills around. I finished it already, gonna purchase more again.

Attended make up cellgroup with W426 yesterday. Many familiar faces, but unfamiliar atmosphere. I tried to make myself comfortable. Wanted to leave earlier, but Shaun suggested that I should stay. I am still looking forward to bible study afterwards :D

Of all that was preached and shared yesterday, I am really in love with his sentence. Somehow it managed to trigger something in me, that I can be on fire again. I was told by Mikki this sentence before, but never seem to apply it. It's alright, I will learn.

The proof of your Desire is in your Pursuit.

School was awesome this week again! Their laughter are contagious once again. I love being with DBA14, I really hope friendships will last :D 3 cheers everyone.

Projects coming up, assignments piling up, stressometer going up, but God's grace and strength in me will increase as well. I am believing God for a greater miracle that He had already done it in my Year 1, and He shall do the same in my Year 2. Looking forward! :D

For the joy of the Lord is your strength.

BIG HUG!

2009-05-14T12:39:00.000+08:00

ELMO & DALE

Basketball

2009-05-13T20:52:00.002+08:00

Hello! I am back to normal blogging, eating pears now, my mummy was too generous to cut 2 pears for me, and now I have difficulty finishing it :( Okay, still trying my best :D

Anyway, I've gotten my laptop back yesterday! I was on my way home when Acer text me regarding my collection of laptop. And so I went straight down to collect my laptop since I was approaching Juring East :D So happy, so excited, so loved, so.. Finally! Can use my laptop liao.

Today was awesome! Because the guys decided to play basketball! Since I was lazy to bring clothes down to change as there was only 1 tutorial, I wore a shirt and my Grey FBT to school Kinda awkward because people all dress nicely today luh.

Get to exercise again! Get to shoot again! :D Crashed into Fazzy's GEMs lesson before 3pm when the guys met up and headed down to the court. The lesson was so damn boring lah, I seriously pity Fazzy haha! She slept throughout the lesson ._.

Chloe, Fazzy and I were the only girls playing with the guys. Adding on Bukit's friends, Fishball & Noodle. It was fun! :D More basketball session guys! :D

Home sweet home, I shall go for a jog tomorrow before lessons, since Mad is sick to accompany me to the GYM. Get well soon Mad! :D

My New Balance Sport shoes declared death today on me :( So Chloe choose the above flipflop for me :D Thanks girl!

QA soon! yawns :(

Lord, your joy is my strength!

Happy Birthday!

2009-05-12T11:59:00.001+08:00

12 May 2009

Happy 50th Birthday Mummy!

Happy 18th Birthday Desmond Toh!

Happy 51st Birthday Shawny's Daddy!

13 May 2009

Happy Advanced 18th Birthday JiaHui!

God Bless! :D

Sometimes I suck

2009-05-11T23:30:00.004+08:00

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I am just pure disappointed with myself. The class cheered me on, I was really touched. Chloe stayed to accompany me, I really appreciate it. But I've disappoint myself, and them.

Thanks Ting Darling for being there when I needed a hug, a listening ear, everything.
JiaHui asked how was I, but I told her not to bother about me.

I held back my tears, but I couldn't help but let it go again. I gave a big let go just now.

I believe God was there, When I cried out to Him.

I am gonna be brave again.

One fine day..

2009-05-11T00:54:00.002+08:00

Hello! I am back to blog, at this hour, because my sister just passed me the desktop. I am unable to complete RWPS for tomorrow, because my lappy was sent for repair, and I am using this desktop without Microsoft Office ._. Bad day, and I am unable to logon to MSN right now, so I can't let my team mates know. Argh!

I gave mummy our present! :D I bought a Anti-Wrinkle Facial thingy for her to apply at night. I forgot the brand again ._. Hope that she'll stay pretty always! :D And also! God spoke to me again, to give mummy a sum of money. Haha, my bank is dry again now, but it's alright. It's time for me to learn to save, slowly :D I hope mummy like the present! And hope she'll get herself things she like too :D

I cleared my stuffs! I have a rack space that is filled with presents. So I wanted to make spaces for more things, and also arrange them neatly. I took my Tiggers out! Then I realized only half of my Tiggers are there :( I think the rest my mummy keep it in the store room, asked me to dig for it next time ._. So I took a photo of the Tiggers! :D

TIGGERS ARE LOVED

Then I had to clear the stuffs Darren gave me last time. I took a picture of those that he gave, most of them are in the boxes. I still have those hearts he folded. I wonder if I want to throw it away, or should I keep it in the store? Maybe I should only keep the ring.

Thanks Jerry! He gave me information on what to do. I think I will email myself with my Introduction for RWPS. At least I did my homework! :D

Mummy's Birthday tomorrow! It's Des's birthday too :D What a coincidence. Happy birthday Des! May your lame jokes last forever. Quickly find a girlfriend soon okay! :D

Netball tomorrow! Wah, nervous already!

Lord, thank you.

Happy Mothers' Day

2009-05-09T23:13:00.004+08:00

I would like to recount my mother's love :D

The memories are so vivid. I remembered I am not a physical touch person (from young I wasn't). My sister has been very loving towards my mum, always hugging and kissing her when she was younger. There was this fine day, where my dad suddenly came to me and asked me to hug my mum, say I love her, and he will treat me to KFC. So what was the outcome? No KFC for me. I am not a person who expresses love by physical touch, but by actions. From young til now, my mum has always been loving. Many a times, words by her can hurt me alot, make me think alot too.

I still remembered when I was just a kindergarten kid. There was once when my mum went to work, and when I came back home realizing she wasn't at home, I cried so badly. My sister complained to my mum about me crying because she wasn't around, and she said 'xiu xiu', means shame shame. Haha! Because she say I am a big girl already.

I still remembered it was Primary 4's April Fool Day, when I had my first period (P/s: This is girl's thing), my mum came to me that morning before school and say, I am a big girl now. Smile to me, and asked my maid to fetch me to school.

I also remembered shouting at her when I was really defiant in the past, that really hurt her alot I know. I've learn to do house chores since young, to help her ease the workload (because act of service is my #1 love language), but right now, I am seldom at home to help her. I guess all these are part of growing up.

Fear gripped me when I see how time passed. In no time, I know it would be my turn to take care of my mum. I am afraid that I will lose my temper, I am afraid that I might give up halfway. I want to spend more time by her side. Can I not grow up? I don't like the idea that I will marry in the future, and I have to leave my mum.

I am not a mushy person, I am not good at words. But my love for my mum has always been at the bottom of my heart, so deep. I really love my mummy.

This year my mum will be celebrating her 50th birthday, and it has past my 18th birthday. Wow, time really flies.

Mummy, Happy Mothers' Day! Hope you would like the present and the card. I will be filial to you, I promise :D

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I am supposed to have Bible Study with Shaun today. But because most of them couldn't make it, and I already arrived, Shaun decided to speak to me. There was alot of silent break in between, with him looking at me, and I don't know what to answer.

Shaun, as he is, spoke into my life again. There's alot to be considered. I've failed, but I will stand up and walk again, completing the race. I don't know what the future will be, and how will it be. I am just thankful that I have God.

Eileen & Jessica came to church with me today. Their perspective of a church totally changed. Yeah, My God is awesome you know. I am really proud of every single thing in my church, the band, the vocalist, the ushers, the building, everything! :D

Have faith, restart.

Netball!

2009-05-08T22:53:00.007+08:00

I LOVE NETBALL! to the max, really.

I think I've been paranoid these few days, kept telling my classmates how anxious am I awaiting for Monday to arrive, to go for the netball selection. It's been 2 years since I last touch the netball. I miss the court, the netball, the pole, the teamwork, the sweat, the workout. Wow! I miss the feeling, in all. Sports, my favourite. Only Netball can be my determination :D I really pray hard, really, that there will be no politics upon me, I want peace!

I can only lose my stamina, but not the skills leh! :( Want to play lah!

This is 2006, picture of me and Ruiling, the closest Netball Bud in my whole team, a wonderful shooter :D I look so erm, sporty? hahaha! So funny!

This is 2007, the last cross country before I pass out from CCKSS. This is with Jane! :D Hope to see you soon girl! :D I know you always read my blog hahaha! :D cheers.

Okay lah! I tell you how am I prepared for netball okay okay? I was so excited that I want to get things ready leh. 2 years lost touch of netball, need to get the feel back. I will be wearing my New Balance Cross Trainer on Monday, black & pink. But! The sport shoes already wear & tear :( Nevermind lah! Didn't want to wear my sneakers and play too! Haha :D

I got a SP top to wear on that day also leh! I need a dry fit top to play sports, but I don't like my CCKSS Netball jersey leh, Orange in color somemore de. Should I wear that instead ah? Hmmms, can consider hor! Then my specs and top match! :D

Then..! I got myself my first ever Adidas Sports Bra! :D Luckily, there's 30% discount leh hahaha! But it doesn't matter actually, the price I meant, I don't mind :D But it's cool! If I am really in, I would wanna get more :D Sporty Sporty! I like! :D

Oh! I got this top for myself! I bought the black one instead, can't find the black version online, so used this color :D It's cool okay! Wanted to get one before school starts, but then didn't get it, only got my black wind breaker that cost $59 the other time :D I like leh! Sherry is right! I am a Fan of BLACK color :D

Sent my Lappy for repair today, at the Jurong Acer building. Thank God that Bukit volunteered to accompany me! :D Wow! I actually wanted to go alone de lor! But then, he say he sian 3 hours break doing nothing, so volunteered to come. So funny! I literally laugh all the way there and back! Shall blog about it! :D

UCCD lecture & MR tutorial is in action today you know! (P/s: Bukit, I told you I will blog about it) Because when we reached JE Mrt, heading towards the Interchange, we saw Researchers! They are taking surveys, and talking to people. Haha! Then when we finally reached the IMM building, we heard one China Guy sing super loudly along the Road, then I told Bukit, it's their culture. LOL! omg lah! so funny, I really laugh like what.

So had lunch together! :D Finally something out of the school canteen :D The subway SUPER long queue can! ._. Kiasu Singaporean. Promotions really work for Subway haha! So we went to the foodcourt instead :D

We cab back to school. Because Bukit didn't want to be a Bukit of perspiration already. So funny! Okay lah, spend so much money, but all in time. Getting my hair cut soon! :D perhaps on Sunday? Awesome! :D Lighter hair you know :D

I am blogging using my desktop now ah! Thanks sister for being so generous ah, lend me for like 1 hour or so? Hehe!

Netball, here I come!

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Since Bukit suggest that this should be up, I shall edit lor. I have no sense of direction, like totally. Actually it has always been, not only today :( But I was trying to argue over Bukit's stereotyping lor, he says scientific proven women tend to have a poorer sense of direction compared to men. Okay, I think at the end of the day, he won, again ._.

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Against all odds

2009-05-07T22:30:00.003+08:00

There will always be light at the end of the tunnel. I feel that many a times, I did things out of impulse, without giving the consequences a thought. But the decision today, I hope will make a difference. Somehow, I felt really suppressed, my emotions are rocking, the things that I've been doing, is unworthy of God, I know, but I can't help but continued.

Before I really go on, I really want to thank God for DBA14, this class is really bonded. It makes me feel like I am still in my first week of school. Because we've been going out, almost every day that is possible, to chill, to play, to chat. Felt a little uneasy without them today.
Well, I am going to share this as a testimonial in the cellgroup soon, I love DBA14.

Back to today's post, many thoughts has been in my mind. I've been sinning, a serious one, in my life right now. I cannot put it down, it has been affecting me for almost a month already. No longer reading the bible, and the devotions, I've been sleeping late because of that matter too. It's stupid I know, I've let God down again and again.

I hate my emotions. Being very emotional is the weakest part of me. I cannot stand myself being emotional, doing things and get very affected. I don't like when people advice me on moving on, when they don't know a single bit of me. I hate to keep moving on despite me feeling sour and tangled inside, and in the end getting myself hurt. I don't like emotions, it is hindering me from achieving things I needed to.

Since school starts, I am really trying my best to be happy (: DBA14's laughter is contagious. I really thank God they are there. I have my own khakis now, XianFeng, Bukit, Jerry, Jeremy and such. I have a great listener, Madeline. I have wonderful classmates, all of DBA14 :D I am thankful for them. I've learnt to be happy, and not faking it, I love to smile :D

Shaun's words are always inside of me. A Mature person moves on to the things they are suppose to do despite those emotions. God gives us emotions, it's a gift. I kept moving on, I really did, throwing unnecessary emotions aside, but sometimes I just need a let out I guess.

I've let the Devil intruded my thoughts, feelings and whatever. I've low resistance to the Devil right now. Lord, I need your angels to guide me now, to take whatever confusion I have away. I am sorry to let You pick up those broken pieces of mine again.

I will try to read the devotions today, no matter how reluctant I can be. And Lord, I know you will guide me :D

Updates! :D

2009-05-06T22:53:00.005+08:00

so eager to blog! But when I reach this page, my head is blank again ._.

Okay lah, let's start from yesterday! Wanted to blog yesterday but couldn't do so because I need to finish FMA yesterday and also sleep lah :( I slept 2am plus plus yesterday again.

Class outing on 5th May Tuesday! We went Causeway Point to catch the movie, Horsemen. I heard that the rating ain't that good, but the effects for me was good lah (: It is scary on it's own different part, especially the part where the Homosexual guy killed himself, I covered my face with my bag, but Jerry continued to watch lah! :( I didn't realized the guys went to buy LJS and sneaked it into the theater ._. So I took 1 french fries each from Jerry & Bukit LOL! (:
Revelation 6 & Exodus 9:15, the story line, makes me don't dare read bible liao :(

Wanted to continue to join the class, but I've got tuition with Natalie. I almost scolded her hard, but managed to hold back my temper. I think I am stressed over her exams, which is next week. I need to make sure that she improves and pass subjects well :( Although she's only Primary 4.

So I cab down to find my classmates after my tuition, because I know their laughter are contagious. It cost me $16 and I got reprimanded by Jerry & XianFeng LOL! Okay lah, I never anyhow spend lah, I really treasure you all alot (:

Nice chatting with Jerry again, on our way home (:

So glad that Peggie and gang is talking much more too (:

Okay, so well day spent yesterday! (: Many of us didn't manage to complete FMA thou haha!

Today was awesome! :D I like I like! School was short, only FMA today from 10am to 12pm haha! So went to CCA drive to sign myself up for netball. You think I am insane? I love netball okay, just that I can't stand my parents nagging at me about me always getting myself hurt during trainings, blahblahblah ._.

Okay, they think I am crazy when I break the news to them, which I don't bother now, right? I just pray that there'll be no politics upon me during my days in netball, don't wanna it to hinder my dream of playing netball again.

Saw JiaHui today at the CCA drive, so I told her I signed up for netball already, see you there on Monday girl! :D

Selection is on Monday, I am pretty nervous. Will I be able to get in? X_X

Bought 1 black SP & 1 white SP top leh! I like :D Gonna wear the black one for netball selection on Monday (:

Had good chats with Fazzy, Sherry & Mad today at JP Macs :D I love to chat, really.

HAHAHA! Okay, I love my TIGGER~ This is my oldest Tigger, 7 year old already! :D

The NAFA people are awesome lah! :D

Lord, I am really sorry

Gothic Hairstyle

2009-05-04T22:00:00.002+08:00

After changing my hairstyle for so long, I am quite happy with my hairstyles, photos as memories. Now my hair is in the recuperating period, resting as it grows after the short Punky cut by toni&guy academy previously. My bleach end haven't been cut off yet, so I can't dye my hair right now to another color.

This two hairstyles above, I like it leh! OMG! Should I cut it not ah?

I want I want! ~

P/s: I WANT MUMU ALSO LAH! :(

LCD cleaning kit

2009-05-04T18:55:00.004+08:00

Hello! I am back to blog :D

The above is the cleaning kit I am having, different brand though. Mine is Atake :D I remembered in year 1, Jerry was the JiePi one haha! He always clean his laptop before he turn off, and while turning on. I always make fun of him leh..
Until now, I think I am the more JiePi one liao ._. Because now I am in love of making sure my laptop is super clean. I don't like the idea of dirt, dust or finger print ._. So I bought a LCD cleaning kit.

Brought the cleaning kit today to school for Bukit. He said his laptop CMI, so I suggested to lend him my cleaning kit today, to save his laptop (see, now I am the super hero!). But it just so happen that the vacuum cleaner suck the micro cloth away while my dad is vacuuming my desk. Wahlau! :( that set of cleaning kit cost alot lor! I told my dad I am gonna buy a new cloth, they say use any cloth also can :( So I went to shop today at Popular again to find the separate cloth they are selling. After searching high and low the whole BPP, there is NONE :( So I had to buy a new set, don't say I waste money okay, cos I got analyse de hor, I show you how~

Firstly, the only cloth that other outlet might have cost $6, and the cleaning set (which is smaller than the current one I am holding) cost $10. I don't mind to pay $6 for the micro cloth itself, because Popular sold a BIG one at $8.50. But! I don't like the idea that it might already be out of stock. So the choice is to either get the cleaning set (which has everything) that cost $10 or just the BIG cloth itself that cost $8.50. The final decision I've decided is to get the cleaning kit, since the solution I am having now is almost finishing, and also, I can give Jerry the extra brush (see above picture) since he's maintaining his laptop well with his spectacle cloth and need no solution :D see~~ I am kind okay! So I called Jerry and told him, passing him tomorrow! :D

I am happy! Cos the cleaning kit comes with a pouch! So I no longer have to carry the 3 item in a separate manner le! :D I can just carry it like that. HAHA :D

Okay, I haven't send my laptop for repair :(

Lord, I've let you down this time.

lol

2009-05-03T14:16:00.001+08:00

Okay I browsed thru my pictures, then I found this. I like this picure leh! Cos it's very clear, although only using my 2 mega pixel phone ._. now my sister using that phone le! :D I think it's clear cos of the lightings leh :( okay lah, still nice :D

Xmen Origins Wolverine

2009-05-03T12:38:00.003+08:00

Okay, I am now blogging about the Xmen Origins Wolverine movie we watched yesterday! :D

Friends that came for service will receive free movie tickets! So I paid for mine and accompanied them to watch. To my despair, W426's theater is different from ours, so only Alfie, Lapis erzi & I watched it on our own.

The movie is kind of boring in the beginning, however, the overall rating I would give is 3.5/5 stars. I find it quite touching de :D So I would recommend you guys to watch as well :D

P/s: Thanks Mikki for subsidizing the ticket for us
P/P/s: Jiayou NAFA people! (:

Inner struggles

2009-05-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

I have Inner Struggles too. But you won't know what they are. God knows. But I am not letting Him heal.

homework

2009-04-29T22:11:00.002+08:00

Oh this Blender thingy is interesting! Haha. I don't want homework lah! Because I feel stress when the tutor is a damn fierce one :( scared scared.

I didn't know the previous post picture was the exact same one as ELMO lols! I can say we still have telepathy although it has been long since that day ah :D So funny leh, I went to his blog then realized HAHA! Okay, I didn't copy you. Now I know where are the sources for your pictures - it's the same as mine :D

Should I give up tuition with Natalie?

Payday soon, but I am not happy at all.

Sick for past few weeks, better already :D Thank God, and thanks people for keeping me in prayer. Just kinda disappointed that my closer friends aren't those who got to know it and encourage me :( Hmmms, be contented with all I have. They are busy too :D

Tomorrow going to ton over at Mikki's chalet. I hope my parents will let me do so :(

Mikki's birthday soon! Will I make a difference?

P/s: Still pondering what to wear tomorrow

Lord, keep me strong and going day after day

sick

2009-04-29T01:31:00.004+08:00

Oh I am really very sick. That flu came so swiftly but doesn't go swiftly :( Caught a flu while having lesson in the RWPS room on Monday, first lesson somemore! :( I thought it was just any other, come & go, but no! It came & stayed ._.

Cough, flu, headache, almost gotten a fever. I rested a lot since yesterday. Kept postponing my FMA tutorial homework so that I can rest. Didn't sleep well last on Monday night, kept tossing. Woke up and ate medicine, still it didn't help. Went to school just now, and it became worse. Thanks Madeline and Fazz for walking me down on my way home, so that I won't faint halfway.

Alot of messages came in, msn chat, SMSes, facebook and tagboard! Thanks people :D Get well soon KY! :D

Oh, an ironic thing happened this morning you know. I've got a new friend - JiaHui from DBA/11.

That friend friend thing is very funny. Like I added her cos I 'know' her a couple of months back. She thought I was a junior, until she realized I wasn't when she finally see my picture. Her concern was she don't add people she don't know, so she suggested we be friend. HAHA! Where to find this kind of thing in campus nowadays? Pure naive thinking, but I like.

Okay, so we are friends now, and we are going to say hello when we see each other :D

Finally done with FMA! Phew! Going to take medicine and sleep tonight again.

My sister on the aircon again ._. should I turn it off?

Lord, heal me, because you're my Jehovah Rapha.

Sherry: Thanks girl! See ya in school tomorrow :D

Movie Marathon

2009-04-27T11:08:00.002+08:00

YAY! :D This picture indicates that the outing for SP/NP Vibez is a Success this time again! :D *double claps* for everyone :D Thanks Sarah for lending the place to us!

It was afterall not just a Movie Marathon. By the laughter, I know that everyone enjoyed the outing! We had games, and Adrian is the noisy one again HAHAHA! :D

The movie we watched is School of Rock, a movie I watched years back :D But it is fun and inspiring once again. This time I wasn't KO! I always fall asleep during movies, really, because movie isn't my kind of thing you know. But I tired my best to be awake HAHAHA! Thanks for the wakey call from xy halfway through thou :D

Didn't have dinner with the CGCs thou :( Had to go home already. But chatting with Ruiling is cool :D Some catch up and craps hahaha!

Now having RWPS Lesson, I think bringing my laptop today is a great choice. I would have fallen alseep if I haven't.

Gonna help Mikki out with her Birthday :D Jiayou everyone!

P/s: Still thinking what to wear to the party.

Guitar

2009-04-27T10:41:00.002+08:00

I love Guitar right now. Thanks Jazz for lending me your Guitar :D I am still unsure if I would be buying my own Guitar, but right now, I am really looking forward to learn to play. I can't wait to hold my very own guitar whenever I am feeling happy or sad, just strumming it and playing songs that will soothe my emotions. I also can't wait to bring my own spiritual level into the next level by playing and singing the Praise & Worship song. I can picture already, myself always sitting down strumming and playing :D I love that feeling.

Did you all remember me mentioning I wanted to learn the piano? Yes I would love to. Piano had been my childhood dream. I remembered I had a crush on a guy who plays piano so dashingly for 3 years in my secondary school :D The piano is cool.

Somehow between this 2, I want to prioritize Guitar. Why?

Firstly, I don't have a Piano at home. It doesn't mean that I own a Guitar. But a Guitar is portable, therefore I've borrowed one from Jazz. I would need the instrument to practice on my skill. I can predict that I will learn the Guitar faster if I would to take up 2, but I wouldn't.
Because secondly, I have many activities on hand, Church and all :D
Lastly, if I really were to learn it well I can help in playing the Guitar in the cellgroup (finger crossed).

In conclusion, my journey in learning the Guitar has just embarked. Yeah, jiayou man! :D

Lord, keep me going, multiply the time to do things

Procrastination

2009-04-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

BUSY

2009-04-25T10:35:00.004+08:00

AH! I can foresee that if I don't blog now, I won't have time to blog for this week already! :( So let me blog right now! :D

Life is super busy after school starts. The 7 weeks of holidays had been a stretch for me :D A very fruitful one because I've been handling 3 jobs and also Church activities. Right now, down with only 1 job, school work and also Church, I pray that God can enlarge my capacity to do things. Things will be prioritized so that it is easier for me to plan. In the midst of all these busyness, God will still let me Shine in my campus.

Many classmates in my class said, oh you don't look like a Christian to me! Then my question to you is, so what is your perspective of a Christian? I am not called to be the background, I am called to be in the picture. I am humble to God, yet confident in front of people. I am what God makes me to be who I am. No longer being a background in the class like year 1, I am going to step out and engage people even more. I can tell all these are also partially influenced by Jerry. It is interesting, to meet people from all walks of life. Sometimes even non-believers are more value added than those believers. I should step out of the 4 walls and engage different people with different backgrounds and different personality. My God will keep me going, He will equip me with things I need :D

I really enjoy chatting with Jerry during the way home on the taxi :D

School is good. Although homeworks are already coming in, that make me sad :( I wonder how am I going to complete it with so many activities going on. I am not to neglect any part of my homework. By God's grace, I will be able to complete tonight. Because tomorrow is CG day & Movie Marathon with the SP/NP Vibez people! :D I miss them much much! :( See you all tomorrow!! :D

PDF - Presents for your Darling & Friends! W473 is having a stall at The Bazaar today! We're going to earn alot alot and alot! ABUNDANCE! :D So glad that we can make use of little man power to do great things! For we do not rely on our strength alone, but God's :D He is almighty! Took leave from serving today, I felt kinda bad thou :( But I need to help Mikki out! So I need to sacrifice one, which is UM. Let's aim for full sales today! With at least 50 orders! :D We can do it people!

OMG! GYM with Madeline on Thursday. I am SO SO SO happy to find out that there's a girl in my class that GYM. Because people will give me that kind of face whenever I tell them I GYM! :( Don't I look like one? Although all my muscles are fats now ._. But I am still broad in size mah!
Okay, so we went to GYM! Workout wasn't too long, because I need to slowly build back stamina. I want to go GYM every week with Mad leh! But the SPGG now charges $3 lor! :( How ah? The school GYM will be super awkward, cos too many Macho guys liao ._. I think I will discuss with Mad again LOL!

I always see them in school. I wonder if they know I am the annon.

Lord, help me shut the backdoor tight, when I move forward to open the front door.

subway

2009-04-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

3rd day of school! I love Wednesday you know, because I only have 1 lesson and it's from 10am-12pm. After that the class can go fellowship! :D

I am now in MSN conversation with most of the people in my class. OMG so funny! :D I love it man! Especially this:
Angeline: OMG I am laughing like shyt!
Jerry: I can't imagine how shyt luff.
OMG, so damn funny! :D

Today went to Subway for lunch, since school ended early. But the Subway queue so damn long! We queued for around 15-20 mins before we managed to order. Then the XianFeng freaking funny! He talked so much til he almost missed his order lah! ._.
Jerry & Jeremy were too hungry so they went FC3 to take a quick bite. Tomorrow gym for them again. Wanted to gym with them since last year. But I think will be super awkward lah! No matter what I am still a charbo. Okay (:

So went to Natalie's house for tuition again. Feeling not that stress now because we're on track to Exam le! Need to brush her up for exam! Using Pet Society to motivate her haha! :D Hopefully she can score better :D

Tomorrow school will be fun! Because I have fun classmates.

It's only day 3 and we have homework already :(

Lord, make me an extraordinary person to shine for the extraordinary YOU :D
I want to find a hurt and heal it, a need and meet it.

left 4 dead

2009-04-21T19:26:00.002+08:00

Hi! I think I am the first one to blog about L4D today! :D

The guys had a great outing today I believe :D
Today's DBA14 outing consist of:
Jerry, XianFeng, Doni, Ronald, Jeremy, Hafiz & me!
People who joined us for a short while:
Firi, Sherry, Fazzylah & Madeline.
Not bad uh, I can still recall their names :D

Had fun! I tried L4D for the first time ever. Always see Bowen & Xin play, but really didn't bother to even try because I know I cannot take this kind of game. Too much for my body, because I am a person who get dizziness really easily! I can just get dizziness whenever I walked on the street or just using my lappy doing usual work.

So glad that the guys include me into their conversation, at least tried to? Especially XianFeng who was really enthu and Jerry who had patience to teach me how to play :D

Well, wishing Bukit good luck for the appeal. Still waiting for his updates thou :(

I think all those efforts to bond the class hasn't gone to waste. The guys bonded well together. Well, it's the girls' turn now! Need to bond them together. Let's have lunch together more often.

After introducing myself as a hardcore blogger in class, getting the everyone's blog address seems a little more awkward than usual. I am not a stalker, just want to link everyone up actively :D

Intensed conversation about hairstyles today with XianFeng, Jerry joined in too :D Awesome!

Oh! And XianFeng said I don't look like a Christian to him! That made me laugh so hard.

Lord, keep me going

first day of year 2

2009-04-20T11:59:00.001+08:00

This picture is cool, because it does not reflect the classroom that we are using now (:

Yesterday was wondering how today can be, but today seemed to be quite alright. What was predicted came expectantly true. Everyone of the same class are cliques together, they felt more comfortable to relate to people they already know. As for me, today's start is just like my start in Poly year 1 (which my cheerful look didn't last). However, this year would be different. This class will be with me for 2 years, strong bonding is necessary :D

Added everyone on MSN & on Facebook. This year I initiated to get everyone's contact, that's some progress in me already. More efforts must be made to make our class be together. But no hurry, because everyone needs time to step out of their own comfort zone.

I was thinking to have a birthday coordinator in our class to make it more interesting. This birthday coordinator shall make a card on everyone's birthday, with the classmates' wishes on it. Instead of pointing people to take the job, I wanted to start this going by myself first :D I hope I can do it thou :D

Met a classmate from CHC too! - Madeline. She's from Expo service Pastor Aries Zone :D That alone made me excited already.

Met this one guy - XianFeng, who have 2 common interest I found so far same as me leh! He likes web designing! He has his own domain. I wanted to invest on that only on the later part. He is much pro than me :D Also he likes to talk about hair lor! But too bad I am not going for creative hairstyles right now, although his conversions could make a swing in me haha! Now want to look more charbo le! :D Awesome man!

I think this class will be cool. I just hope I can interact well, nothing else matters thou :D

Same lecture group with Eileen and Jessica! WAH! :D OMG, made me jump haha! I miss them dearly. Used to say that I like to change class, but now, I really miss them alot, without finger crossed :( Saw HangChi today also, she cut her hair shorter :D

Will Poly life be awesome? Stay Tune! :D

Lord, use me in my campus to shine

Sweet Sunday

2009-04-19T23:00:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone. It's time to blog you know. Before I end the day with my daily devotions and prayers, then tucking in to bed. Today is well spent. So many things to blog :D

Yesterday I considered exchanging daLe for your friendship, I guess this young friendship of ours is precious to me too. But you spoke to me online after that, made me think twice about my actions. I really am appreciative for you in every way. Cheers, do well in school! :D

Okay, back to today. Woke up late today, at around 1140am! That is considered late already. Finally some breaks in between, took some breather! :D This week had been fruitful and fun-filling too. Many people were busy going out because this is the last week of holidays for Poly Students :(

Many people rejected and backed out after agreeing with me to shop for my jeans and bags. Because everyone is busy. I thought I would have to go shopping alone today, which I told myself it's alright too. It was when I've decided to go out of the house with my sister, Rolling spoke to me on msn. I went O.O!

So touched. So much catch up to do also. I asked her out instead. She agreed and say she wanna speak to me too :D After those incident, at that instance that she might leave church for good, I realized that she plays important part in my life too. She's always that cheerful apple that will brighten my day whenever I am down. She never fails to make me laugh, say lame jokes. Although I really hate to admit that some people are indeed important in my life, because I don't want them to know my weakest point, this time I had to admit. Really well day spent. She finally open up her blog for all to see. I may not be like ahmoi, someone that she can rely too, but I am just another normal friend, in her life I guess.

After shopping for my Jeans and Bag, we went to Causeway point to eat 'ice' LOL! I know I can't take cold stuffs, today I took alot. I had Red Ruby for dessert, then after which at Natalie's house also take cold stuffs. Today confirm die til jialat ._.

I like this picture.

Sometimes, I don't need love. All I need is to be alone.

Dinner time! :D Went to SzeHui's house to return her the board games :D Natalie's mum cooked for me today like usual. This is her standard of food leh! Take picture show you all :D YUMMY!

Helped Natalie with her School work after that. So tedious and tiring! But managed to complete it! :D She love it, I hope it will be pinned up in her class room too! :D Cheerios!

Okay lah, that's Natalie at the back, act Camera shy only! Haha! :D

Home sweet home. Tomorrow will be a good day I guess.

OMG! HangChi told me how to check for all my classmates in the new class. And all I don't know de lor, except from my own class :(

Lord, bless school!

good start

2009-04-19T01:48:00.004+08:00

wah, seriously cannot do without my girls in life. They are Jermaine, XueTing, Samantha, etc..
They are really those that really know me. See my ugliest side also haha!
Emo until I didn't want to speak up, they could let me speak up thou. That's very pro you know. Because only God will know every single thoughts I have in my mind :D
Esp Jermaine lah, she will just ask and ask and ask, simply ask, until I have no choice but to be frank. But every conversation, I am trying my best to get the messages as real as my heart could explain. I am not an expressive person (although there are alot of expression on my face).

*Rants*
To that particular person, my patience is running out very soon. But I will pluck up the courage to stop things I don't like to keep on happening, because it's irritating.
*Roll eyes*

I was glad I didn't reject the fellowship after service, although I was low at that point of time.

Had a great chat with WeiKen! He taught me alot of things too :D Tried out Yami Yoghurt for the first time, and Jasmine bought 2 big cups can! ._. well, she's addicted haha!

Prawning today is really fun! Although I only managed to catch one prawn, and the weather is really freaking hot, but still, I enjoyed myself! I ate the prawns we caught and BBQed, I tell you, it's really NICE! So fresh and so ORIGINAL! :D

Hey CGC VIBEZ people! Let's go prawning together someday and NUA at there also! Seriously fun! :D Can cultivate patience too! (That's the part I like)

Okay, service was interesting. Really enjoyed the drama. The message for today's sermon spoke into dajie's life. The person I thought of was her, when Pastor asked to pray for us. I lifted an impossible friendship up to God too :D Not much faith and hope in it, but still gonna see God move :D That friendship doesn't bothers me anymore.

1 more day, school's atarting. I text everyone in the CG and also my closest friends in W426. Praying hard for a breakthru yet to come!

Lord, I am seeing more and more of you.

just for laughs

2009-04-18T01:19:00.002+08:00

Okay lah, I know you all will laugh, so named it - Just for laughs. HAHA!

Me with my facial mask on, carrying my 7 year old TIGGER! :D

Don't be a Christian, Be Christ-Like

2009-04-17T21:57:00.007+08:00

I am blogging right now because I admire the frankness in Anyi (aka My dajie) :D This is quoted from her blog, mostly her thoughts as a Christian right now. I don't deny that sometimes those thoughts triggered me as well (excluding her personal ones). But, I guess, only God holds the answer to all those questions that we often ask ourselves.

As a Chrisitian, do you question yourself like this too?
Quoted from Collen D

"Can i still play with Gary?"
"Can I make a comment on this?"
"I have not read the bible today how?"
"Can I express my anger?"
"Can I throw my temper for this incident?"
"Can I forgive this person another time?"
"Is this person talking to me because I'm from church?"
"Is this person trustworthy enough?"
"Can I share my thoughts with this person?"
"Can I not talk about anything related to church?"
"Oh no, I forgot to say grace how?"
"Today I only prayed twice, is it enough?"
"I was selfish a moment ago, how?"
"is this advice i hear approved by God or by the devil?"
"I don't like this person, must I still be fake and make friend?"
"Is he/she irritated cause i hesitate and always trouble him/her?"
"Is God going to punish me for ignoring my mum?"
"Is God unhappy about me for being unfriendly to his people?"
"Did the people of God feel that I'm trying very hard t become friends because I hav to fellowship?"
"Did my classmate think I'm insane because I always tell them about church?"
"Did my friends want me to keep quiet because I invite too much?"
"Are they thinking that I'm not suitable to be the child of God?"
"Why can't I do this on my own?"

Okay, I think it's time we ask God to answer all our questions, slowly haha! :D

Okay, side track a bit. I find this interesting, that's why wanna blog it out.

It's cool when you have siblings of a different church, because the Pastors preached differently, and you can share sermon notes. So my sister came home one day from Church, and shared this with me.

Don't be a Christian

7 things I hate about Christianity (Part 1):

Hypocritical (results shown 85%)
Judgmental (results shown 87%)
Anti-Everything (eg, abortion, homosexual, adultery)
Irrelevant
Only interested in 'Converting' People
Users, Takers & Consumers
Boring (results shown 64%)

Okay, I don't think I can elaborate, but I can agree!
So the conclusion for this is,

Since Christianity has bad reputation, don't follow its steps!

Don't be a Christian; Be Christ-Like!
Don't believe in Christianity; But Believe in Christ!

Okay, this is seriously interesting! :D Can't wait for my sister to show me part 2 & 3 :D

Things to do during weekends:

Saturday:

Prawning with CGM at Jurong Hill! :D
Service with Pastor Kong - Last series of Relationship :D
Interview with Celebrity! & Buffet for dinner :D

Sunday:

Buy jeans & bag from Penisula Shopping mall with dajie! :D
Chill (nua) at CasualPoet (aka BookCafe) with dajie! :D
Tuition with Natalie :D

School starting! God bless!

P/s: I love my wind breaker :D

Bye bye holidays

2009-04-17T16:44:00.004+08:00

Still thinking what to blog.

School is starting next week. What do I want to achieve this coming year 2 in Poly?

Better social life in school
GPA 3.5 at least in Sem 1
Good project grades
Enlarged capacity to cope with School & Church

Indeed this 7 weeks of holidays for me has been fruitful. I don't deny there's ups and downs during this period of holidays, but meanwhile I've learnt alot.

Many things kept me going this period of holidays. Work and Church, it is enough to keep me occupied already :D But I really enjoy it so much. Doing the same thing over and over again in the office is really boring, but the pay that is yet to come is my silent motivator :D

So glad that I've achieved so much during this holiday

Helping out more in Cellgroup
Completing my first freelancing blogskin - Linda's by Ombre blog
Gotten a job in Brilliant City from my pru boss & working there
Went to leader's meeting for the first time! That night was really awesome!
Made alot of small mistakes and learn from it
Complete my building fund, after my first round pay
Gotten a personal tuition job for the first time, managing 3 jobs at a go
Helping my friends to look for jobs :D
Get to know more friends!! :D CGCs, CGMs & alot more!
Going to get PassioNaliseD studio recording soon! :D
Starting Piano lesson yesterday with ShuJian Laoshi :D

I think the rest are those satisfactory in my heart. I have made full use of this holiday to stretch myself. I can go further, because my God will bring me from Glory to Glory, I am always letting Him take over.

There's alot of emotional knot during this period of holidays. So glad that I am filled with encouragement to think of now. It will bring me out of it, God's words will bring me out of it :D I am a new woMAN now :D

Shopping with Mikki earlier. Met up with her pru boss, Eunice too :D I bought a cool wind breaker worth $59, but paid only $41.93. Thanks to Mikki lah! That wind breaker is awesome lah. I need to jian fei. So the only discipline I can get is to join netball as my CCA when term starts. Can't wait too.

So many things to look forward in Poly year 2. Although year 1 left me broken memories, but it shall not stay like this forever.

I can't wait to be in the same GEMs class with Kathe and Sock! :D

Okay, I can't wait to get 2 more skinny jeans and a backpack this weekend too! :D

School is starting, Holidays are ending. All these are just the beginnings :D

My God is good.

I really appreciate Shuan's Tip of the day message he would send all of us almost everyday. The tips yesterday and today is really true, triggering the thought in me, I just love the messages.

Today's Tip of the Day:
You will never know God is all you need until God is all you have - Rick Warren.
God cannot be the first priority, He must be the ONLY priority - Pst Phil.

Yesterday's Tip of the Day:
People come to church for God but leave because of Man. So it is Man's fault that people leave or is it because people have forgotten about God? Let us always remember why we are in Church and always keep our focus on God. When God is the reason for us being in church, the things that men do to disappoint and hurt us have a smaller bearing on whether we stay or leave God.

P/s: Special thanks to ShuJian Laoshi for teaching piano yesterday. His piano skills are really awesome too! :D Can't wait for the next lesson :D
P/P/s: Can't wait for SK to be back in Singapore! :D Gonna learn Guitar from him during CG days too! Thanks Jazz for lending me his Guitar too! :D

Wisdom

2009-04-16T12:09:00.000+08:00

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Jesus Take the Wheel - Carrie Underwood

2009-04-16T09:50:00.002+08:00

This song soothed the emotions in me :D

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
she was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me...

I am letting go & letting God.

good night

2009-04-15T00:27:00.003+08:00

Okay, before I end my day with the devotions and prayers, and go to bed, let me update about today! :D

After the great storm, finally peace in my heart. I know I am very weak emotionally. But when my emotions are down, I can't help but sink with it together.

Tomorrow BookCafe with Ting & Mikki! :D A great place to chill (nua) I suppose. I am going to have the Frog Porridge for dinner! Fasting tomorrow. Still deciding what type of fast I am going to have. My stomach is weak, cannot have total fast. Hmmms.

Kai came today to check out the RAM. Going to insert at least 2GB RAM soon for my desktop. Sometimes I don't really wanna care. I have my laptop to take care of (of course it's in good conditions in my hand), another desktop is troublesome. My sister doesn't bother to take care of it, why should I then? Just can't stand my dad's nagging about the slow startup. Ahh! Nothing pleases him.

Okay, stop complaining and sit down!

Accompanied Kai to purchase the screen cleaner. Told him it works. He finally got it after don't know how long of persuasion lah ._. okay, he is also coming for Saturday's event. I felt like, we're seeing each other more. HAHA! Okay, random. Not just call him when my com is down. Sometimes, fellowship is needed to maintain the friendship?

I am super glad that WanXiu called me earlier. Just some catch up kind of thing, that leaders always call to do so. But I appreciate so much that she shared alot about herself. Now I get to know her even more :D Thanks girl.

Work wasn't really smooth sailing for me. I kept making silly mistakes. As if I didn't pay more attention to it. Hmmms, maybe I really need to pull up my socks! (But I only wear ankle socks) Looking forward to Saturday! :D

So so sad that Friday's movie marathon is canceled. I miss the VIBEZ people really! :( But glad that something more fun is going to be organized! So there's something I can look forward now! :D

Okay, Devotion & prayer time! :D

P/s: No time to buy my things lor! :( I need my jeans, bag, top and hoodies! :(
P/P/s: School is starting, Holidays are ending :(

Lord, enlarge my capacity to love.

需要爱 - 陳奕

2009-04-15T00:20:00.002+08:00

OMG, I am in love with this song! :D I love the meaning of the lyrics too! Esp the last line of the Chorus. Check it out! :D

快乐是怎麽飞走我们是怎麽分手说完了再见以後会不会就不联络
电视机还没关过手机顽固的沉默光线都躲在角落没有了你的生活

回收车回收问候贩卖机贩卖寂寞便利店便利伤口应该要往哪里走

你说的我都知道你要我把你忘掉只是我控制不了想这样不被需要
如果爱这麽渺小随便的就能忘掉为什麽还有心跳怒力的时候眼泪会掉

快乐是怎麽飞走我们是怎麽分手说完了再见以後会不会就不联络
电视机还没关过手机顽固的沉默光线都躲在角落没有了你的生活

回收车回收问候贩卖机贩卖寂寞便利店便利伤口应该要往哪里走

你说的我都知道你要我把你忘掉只是我控制不了想这样不被需要
如果爱这麽渺小随便的就能忘掉为什麽还有心跳怒力的时候眼泪会掉

你说的我都知道(我都知道) 你要我把你忘掉(把你忘掉)
只是我控制不了(控制不了) 想这样不被需要(不被需要)
如果爱这麽渺小(这么渺小) 随便的就能忘掉(怎能忘掉)
为什麽还有心跳(还有心跳) 怒力的时候眼泪会掉

This is funny

2009-04-14T10:48:00.003+08:00

I received this email from Hangchi days before. Forwarded to my sister, and we really had a great laugh at it. Test some people, they also laugh at it. Okay, so I decided to post it up, so you guys can laugh at it too! :D

Test for Dementia (癡呆症)
Below are four (4) questions and a bonus question. You have to answer them instantly. You can't take your time, answer all of them immediately. Let's find out just how clever you really are.

#1 You're participating in a race. You overtake the second place person. What position are you in?

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Answer: If you answer you're the first then you're wrong! If you overtake the second place person and you take their place, then you're second!

#2 You're in a race, and you overtake the last person, then you are?

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Answer: If you answered you are second to last, then you're wrong again! Tell me, how can you overtake the LAST person? Yo! you're not having a good time at this. Are you?

Very tricky maths! Note: This must be done in your head only. Do NOT use paper and pencil or a calculator. Try it.

#3 Take 1000 and add 40 to it. Now add another 1000. Now add 30. Add another 1000. Now add 20. Now add another 1000. now add 10. What is the total?

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Answer: Did you get 5000? The correct answer is actually 4100. Don't believe it? Check with your calculator!

#4 Mary's father has five daughters: 1. Nana, 2. Nene, 3. Nini, 4. Nono. What is the name of the fifth daughter?

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Answer: Nunu? NO! Of course not. Her name is Mary. Read the question again!

Now to the bonus questions!

Bonus Question:
There is a mute person who wants to buy a toothbrush. By imitating the action of brushing one's teeth he successfully expresses himself to the shopkeeper and the purchase is done. Now if there is a blind man who wishes to buy a pair of sunglasses, how should he express himself?

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Answer: He just has to open his mouth and ask. He's blind! not mute - so simple.

HAHAHA! Okay, just for laugh :D

Zao an!

2009-04-14T09:53:00.003+08:00

Good morning! :D I've decided to change the font for this text area, so that it looks neater, it does, right? Haha! Surprised to see tags on my tagboard so early in the morning. I wanna something simple, nothing fanciful, so changed my text color in the tagboard to all black, except for links. Still thinking which font to change. Hmmms.

Right now in the office, getting recruitment section ready to email my boss. Hopefully I can work well today. Well, it's my last week of 'work' already. I wonder if I will still be back in office when school starts. Most probably nope, I will miss my colleagues! They are all from China, but fun people :D Totally changed my perspective for China people haha! I am still learning how to speak better Chinese with them.

Well, I just feel like blogging. Haha.

Yesterday's devotion is about Tribulations. A big word for Christians nowadays, something Big for me too. But yes, God allows all things to happen for a reason of course. Sometimes it's even beyond our explanations. We cannot try to explain it, but learn to accept it. It will make us stronger :D

Yes yes! Do more do more! Don't talk the talk, but walk the talk instead. In all times, action speaks louder than words. And my Love Language #1 is Acts of Service! :D

Well, in this order..
#1 Acts of Service
#2 Receiving Gifts
#3 Quality Time
#4 Words of Affirmation
#5 Physical Touch

I can't wait to meet the vibez people up again. They sure are fun! :D I hope this Friday's Movie Marathon is more or less confirmed :D

P/s: I think I will have to go down to town alone to get my jeans, hoodies and top :(
P/P/s: No replies from Mikki is worrying me! But still waiting patiently because she's busy :(
P/P/P/s: Will school be fun? Praying for wisdom! :D

Lord, not my will, but yours be done

last week

2009-04-13T22:42:00.002+08:00

This is the last week of Holidays! School reopening next Monday. Bye bye Holidays! :(

I haven't get things prepared yet. Ahh! My crumpler! The thought of it aches my heart! I want a crumpler badly! :( But but but!

Thanks Kai for coming over to reformat my freaking slow desktop :D I know you're tired! Take care! :D

Plans for this week:
Monday - Work & Kai come to reformat com.
Tuesday - Work & Practices for studio recording with PassioNaliseD.
Wednesday - Work, Prayer Meeting at Xin's house, then Tuition with Natalie.
Thursday - Work & first piano lesson with Shawny Laoshi :D
Friday - Work & Move Marathon with VIBEZ people at Sarah's house :D
Saturday - Prawning & BBQ session with CGM, and also Service! :D
Sunday - Tuition with Natalie again.

Wah, I think I will be dead beat. I wanna shop for a backpack at least lah! Some hoodies, and jeans too! I also need some top. Wah, I haven't gotten myself things before school starts :( I must have some changes compared to year 1 mah! :( Okay lah, gonna get them asap! Someone volunteer to accompany me? :D

So tired le! I need to read devotions then sleep.

I wanna learn how to FAST more! :D

Lord, let me get control over my own body! :D

All in one

2009-04-12T22:46:00.002+08:00

Finally, peace. And I can pen down my thoughts. Maybe some random stuffs too :D

Sorry people if I have locked up some posts, but I think I am back on track again. I need places to pen down my thoughts, so when I am unable to let you all know, I will lock it up.

From Friday, it was a tiring weekend but yet a fruitful one. After so many invitations, I finally get to bring Kai to my church and take a look. I am really so proud of the Drama Crews, they really rocks. I am so proud of my church, really, no matter how many rumors are spreading. Well, for a famous church like ours, jealousy & rumors are inevitable, you have to face the fact whether you agree or not :D

Many friends came, many were saved too. I pray that their salvation will be an on-going one. Keep on, keeping on. Thank God for increment in numbers in W473 too! *claps* It's not about the numbers, really, it's about their individual salvation. I am believing God to bring our cellgroup into another level.

My God is a God of everything.

The drama never fail to touch me! :D I teared at the same scenes the 3 days. I think I am going to share this as a testimony too :D So many testimony to share, but it will take another 2-3 weeks before cellgroup resumes, I wonder will I still remember.

Okay, Mikki is busy, I wanna help her with things.

I felt bad about alot of things, so I emailed my boss about it. Hope she understand how I feel.

I am taking charge and control over my own spiritual life.

I am really unworthy of God, but I decided to place down my burdens and take a step forward again. My faith was made well again, and I am back on track. This time, bringing me from Glory to Glory, I will grow to another level.

SweeKeng's encouragement meant alot! I saw his sms this morning, asking me to jiayou for Mikki and Cellgroup, first time received sms like this from him, yes I will, definitely will! :D

I wanna learn guitar from SK & Piano from Shawny. But too busy, need time management! :D

P/s: I dislike people who don't reply smses. No one in particular, everyone in general.

My left albow hurts like mad today :( put an albow guard over it.

Went to Tampines mall with Christina today. Went to an expensive place to eat lah ._. Tampines Mall 1 really consist of branded stuffs lor. But overall I enjoyed myself. Gotten myself a new wallet! I am so happy, it made my day as well!

Well, decided to drop the idea of a crumpler lah, went to check the website out, and it is not within my budget. I rather save up more, and give God more.

So happy that I fulfilled my building fund already! :D Gonna pledge more the upcoming ones.

Praying my spiritual life back slowly.

Prawning and BBQing this sunday, anyone interested? haha! :D so fun!

Movie Marathon with the CGC people soon! :D Awesome man!

Lord, thanks for making me well again. Indeed, it's a choice. Freedom of choice you've given us. School is starting, I pray for better relationship in school. Let me shine Lord! For you :D

Sentosa!

2009-04-09T13:14:00.003+08:00

This is the date due pictures about the Sentosa outing with SP & NP V.I.B.E.Z people on 6th April. Really something that is unforgettable man! Although there's 66 pictures in all for this trip, I only posted like 14? Haha! You can check out the rest, and the video on FaceBook! :D

Check the pictures out! :D

Special thanks to: Alwin, Xinying, Sarah, Xinyi
People who attended are seriously awesome too! We really had fun, I bet everyone agree with me! :D More outings to come, yeah man!

We are influenced by Sarah! - Her man man thingy hahaha!

Shop at Vivo with Jasmin, Xinying, Sarah & Maylin! Had fun really! We bought Bookmarks from PageOne! :D Awesome man, now my bible has new bookmarks :D

Cheers everyone. Thanks for making it happen. More friendships built, stronger ones are yet to come.

Let's jiayou! :D

Love you guys much much :D

Right now

2009-04-08T13:09:00.001+08:00

I need to move on, quickly and firmly.

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I love my Lord :D

P/s: I want a new wallet! Can't wait to find one! :(

P/P/s: I will blog about the Sentosa Outreach! (:

Awesome Frog Porridge!

2009-04-07T14:20:00.002+08:00

what a fruitful morning! I blogged about me reuniting with a Primary school good friend - Christina. So not used to calling her that, I still like to call her ShunPing leh ._.

Accompanied her down to ChinaTown for her job interview. So fast got job interview le can. So bus down. Then the sky turned black while we were still traveling in 190, then it rained cats & dogs. But Christina's eye was sharp. She caught the road name so quickly, and we don't have to search under the rain because of that. Went to CK department stall to get an umbrella, then headed down to the Advertising Company that she was being short listed to.

Watched Tom & Jerry at the office while waiting for her interview to end. Gonna pray that she'll be entered into the next round, which will be 3.5 hours? *faints*

So we headed down to have our lunch. We had Frog Porridge! I remembered me don't even dare to eat it when I was young. But Christina said it is really nice. So I thought I want to give it a try. It cost 8bucks mind you! But.. It is really nice! For someone who don't eat Frog Porridge to tell you it's nice, it's really really awesome can! So it's worth the price! :D

Okay, Christina put alot of sauce into her bowl. We really eat without talking can. So engrossed and so Enthu. Had Milo Ice too! Good combination :D

I seriously recommend you all to give it a try man! You will not regret it!

The address is.. No. 256 New Bridge Road, just behind the CK department stall!

Working now, Prayer Meeting with Pastor later, Gonna be a fruitful and tiring day once again!

Need to chiong assessments for Natalie later too.

Busy Busy Busy!

Gonna blog about Sentosa Trip with the VIBEZ people yesterday later, when I receive all the photos from Sarah! :D

locked

2009-04-05T02:11:00.005+08:00

I am sorry but, don't ask me for the password.

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I just need somewhere, to lock up my thoughts.

Have a nice day people :D

DBA05 Memories

2009-04-03T15:13:00.006+08:00

I come to a realization that I really am going to miss my Poly Year 1 class. I really do, this time without finger being crossed. This is deep down from my heart.

The first clique in my Poly life - MCG (maoce gang). I remembered them renaming it after me, because I kept using the Maoce (Toilet). Haha! I have a Maoce friend - Eileen. I miss those days where Violet would randomly ask if we wanna go Kboxing together, then Jessica would be super hyper. I miss those days where we will chill (nua) at Moberly in between lesson, cursing & swearing why are we having such a long hours of break in between. I miss those days we would be very hardworking, going foodcourts after foodcourts just to explore food. I miss those times where I would bug Violet, kept asking her how to do Accountings. I am still using her method in studying, online lectures.

Maoce Gang - 6 of us initially, 5 of them eventually. I really miss them alot. No matter how hard the dispute was. Jiayou girls, in the 2 more years in Poly. All the best! :D

This is my first class in Poly - DBA/FT/05. Cheers for that. This is not the "quan jia fu" because one more clique is missing. But this is the first ever time we enjoyed ourselves. This is the photo of the CIP Jerry, our class assistant rap, got us involved in. It is also featured in the newspaper. Really am so blessed to have you guys in my life. Although there wasn't so much outings together, but I do remembered the first "outing" we had was the Flag Day CIP. We look young here, I know we will all look different when we grow up. Pieces of us here and there in the same class this coming Semester. But I really wish you guys all the best. Study & Play hard! :D

Because of those small teeny weeny disputes, I always wanted to change class. Just because I thought that's the best solution to separate Us. I didn't want the awkwardness. But I guess that friendship wasn't too hard to swallow my mistake and endure the pain. I knew I once treated this friendship strong, by my own ways actually, which was wrong. Another turning point of my life.

I shouldn't run away from the problem, but I cannot face the awkwardness at the same time. I am terribly sorry, if you are gonna read this, which I am sure you will.

Right now, time flies. We're already going to be in Year 2, in 2 weeks' time. I really will miss a lot of them, most of them. I think the best way to stay strong is to study harder. We will carry our smiles when we see each other, I know that! :D

Love you guys very much.

Take care always.

Screams!

2009-04-02T23:18:00.002+08:00

KY SCREAMED AHHHHHHH!!! AHHHHHH!!! AHHHHH!!!
I AM SERIOUSLY GOING CRAZY PEOPLE! :DDDDDDDD

Okay, I will tell you what happened =D

I've checked my timetable for year 2 today.

And..

I am in DBA/FT/2A/14! :D WOOTS!

Same class with...
Jess, Jerry, Jeremy and Clement! :D
That's all I know so far!

School's starting in 20 Apr, that's like a flash across time! :D

Super Hyper Can!

My specialization is .. Marketing! :D WOOTS!

I am really happy! Those friends I can mix with all same class with me. Really contented! :D

Jess: I will hate you! ahahahaha! like real. omg babe! we're in the same class! Can you slap me now? HAHAHA!

Okay, I really need to cool myself down!

And also! My Jasmine! Although we not same class, but there's three days we can go school together! OMG! I miss her like so many can! We stay like so freaking near. Okay, I am going to ask her out to SHOP! Like, really! :D

WOW!

Not Emo!

2009-04-02T11:24:00.003+08:00

Okay, I don't know what to blog already. I am already so tired and sick of being down.

Everyone needs ego fruit. Appreciate Mikki for the Msn chat yesterday. Where's my ego fruit? I tried looking into the mirror, but I've shunned myself away once again. There will be one day where I can smile and zilian all the way. One day.. It will happen.

Enough of that. Ugly duckling will become a beautiful swarn. No matter how impossible it is in my heart right now, but still choose to think positively. Okay, another step ahead.

I am like a zombie now. I don't know how am I feeling.

Still rememebers what Shaun say, shouldn't wallow myself in self-pity, it's all waste of my time. Everyone one is busy reaching out to friends for Easter Day, where's my energy for that?

At times, I am tired of being holy already. Feel like leaving the holy place to the worldly place. But still I know that, it's all those unholy worldy things that are pulling me away. Why is it so hard? God knows, He knows.

Okay, I still believe in Jesus.

Back to work!

Thoughts

2009-04-01T23:46:00.002+08:00

Work, Work, Work.
Everyday heading to Work, I am dead beat.
Although I am slacking in the office most of the time,
But! I am bored to death!

Today I am happy!
Because I received my pay cheque from my boss :D
But! It will not be in time to clear for tomorrow :(
Tomorrow will be meeting Anyi dajie, Rolling laogong & Lapis erzi up! :D
Hopefully going for prayer meeting tomorrow too!

Finally PassioNaliseD met up for some practices.
The practices are hilarious seriously :D

What are friends for life?

I am locking up my feelings.
That's part of maturity I guess.
I don't have to say everything that is on my mind.

There's this couple blog I am really addicted to.
Someone in my school, a year senior than me.
Same course, and also same Specialization if I got into Marketing.
I am not a pervertic stalker that stalks their life.
I merely sympathizes them, first time ever, really.
Wish them all well.
Well, their blog never fail to make me laugh like shyt. HAHA.

I need to grow up.

I want to become pretty, I really meant it.
That's a stupid confession deep down in my heart.
I need no comments for that.
I shall see how it works out.

Can't stand my parents' naggings.
I need to break free from that.
Otherwise, I wouldn't wanna be back home.

I want to run to the alter, and catch the fire.
To stand in the gap, between the living and the dead.

I think going for Prayer Meeting for now is the best time,
To engage myself back to the Lord.

Devotions & Prayers aside today.

Peace I need.

OH! There's this friend of mine, Sarah, we keep smsing non stop. The topic goes day by day man! We can just merely sms to continue everyday. At this rate, we have forever to chat about. HAHA.

Okay bye!

Laptop Casing

2009-03-31T23:16:00.003+08:00

I'm so happy! I finally can strike out one of my wishlist item - Laptop casing :D

Today was alright, because I'm gonna receive my pay cheque tomorrow from my boss. Then I don't know how many days they would then clear the cheque because I haven't receive pay cheque before, sounds quite fun yeah?

So after work today, I meet up with Ting and headed down to Funan IT Mall. We went to Challenger, a place where Kai brought me there before. I already eyed on some laptop casing when Kai brought me there :D But today, there are already some changes. Those laptop casing I eyed wasn't there already. After a long search, Ting & I found this the above laptop casing. It doesn't look appealing to us initially, but after that, we still decided to buy it. Haha! Never judge a book by it's cover. It's nice alright! It's flip sided. There are 2 colors. So Ting & I choose Black & Red. Awesome colors! Cost us $26 :D

Ahh! I can carry my laptop around le! :D I mean feeling better with a new cloth on my laptop!

Prayer Meeting was awesome! It energized me! And so, I've completed all the My Life Binder Songsheets for W473! *Claps* Awaiting Mikki to pass me more songs :D

& oh! I've checked my tithe & Building Fund status le, finally it's updated on the net! :D

I really hope I can visit Val this Friday! :D Hopefully ahmoi is able to make it for Easter Service too! :D

I need a new bagpack! Any suggestions anyone?

Lord, hold me even when I'm falling.

fellowship day!

2009-03-31T01:57:00.003+08:00

WOW! Abundance! Okay, I still owe Sister Kevin 3bucks! :(

Today is the day of fellowship. Was looking forward to go to Bowen's house to meet the My Life Committees after my work. However, I wasn't feeling well this morning, so decided to just work 2 hours at home. Karen agreed! :D Tomorrow will be a day of busyness again!

The My Life Committees were hardworking! They rushed many devotions out! More than a month's. I thought after April's devotions, they could take a rest, but nope, they kept rushing. Looking at the FATFAT My Life Binder, I think everyone is so satisfied! Filled with God's words :D I really can't wait to complete!

Hwa came to Bowen's house later. So she taught me more about the songsheet. Now I can be independent for the songsheets already, thanks Hwa :D After reaching home, I did another Praise & Worship. I really can't wait to help my cellgroup complete all! I must help them fill up "God's Presence" page! :D

We ordered Mac. Everyone was rather hungry, except sister Kevin, who was very hungry! Haha! We seriously had a lot of fun & laughter! I can't wait to meet them all up again! Although I am not part of the Committee! :D

Xin showed us a mini Phil Pringles book about leadership. I really like it alot! :D I think I wanna equip myself more with God's words by purchasing books! I will start to buy when I have the ability to do that. Not just reading and enjoying, but it is also Educational! :D

I really love my Spiritual Family alot! :D

Prayer Meeting starts tomorrow! For the whole of this week! Can't wait to ask God for more!

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
-Matthew 7:7 NIV

I will add more prayer request in my prayer book! I am going to be independent to go for prayer meetings! I want to experience God even more! :D

I don't know what happened to my tithe and building fund, it is not appearing anywhere :(

Lord, thank you!

:D

2009-03-30T10:55:00.002+08:00

My mood is calm. Not very happy, not very moody. I remembered Shaun's sms when I shared with him, his advices are really straight to the point, just what I needed. There's no time to be emo and wallowing yourself is self-pity. Wake up KY! :D

Okay, I am awake now. If I haven't I wouldn't be blogging right now. Right now is still morning. I love the peace in my study room right now. Lights on, thoughts reflected, peaceful feeling. Going to work later. Today's work wouldn't be tedious because I need to complete 2 Newspaper's Recruitment section for my boss. Hopefully I can finish that.

Meeting the My Life Committee later. I don't know if I should go. No news from Xin after her last call during my tuition, but Ting was excited. I just don't want the history to repeat itself. But I know I wouldn't be "disturbing" them. Maybe just sitting there and try to complete as many songsheets as possible.

I want to go to the sea, sit by the sand and breathe in the air. Whoa, I love this feeling.

Easter Day is coming. I am not an evangelizing person. I just hope I can do it for God. Jiayou!

Was super duper angry and upset by my My Life Binder yesterday. Shall not elaborate on it, because I've already settled it. Just that the thought of it make me upset again ._.

1 more hour before I leave the house. What shall I do next?

Lord, come and stay in my heart.

piano lesson

2009-03-29T16:25:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for the first lesson with Teacher Shujian to commence!

Met up with the girls yesterday at panjang, sam wasn't around. It was quite some time when Rolling shared with me her thoughts, but yesterday, she shared with us. I thought that is really a good start of another renewed friendship.

Only true friend speaks the hardest truth, I finally could let Rolling know what's on my mind.

I think the friendship ahead will prosper. I really thank God for what I am today.

Used to only think that I would fail, but right now, I am tired of confessing such thoughts. I thank God that He could simply just shut my mouth up. Looking forward, I haven't achieve what I want to, but looking backwards, I've put down so much already.

The visions ahead of me, is all so bright. I am going to always look upon God. This is something that I couldn't do it in the past, but somehow, it seemed so easy now? God is great.

Xueting would be joining me to learn piano from Teacher Shujian.

Okay, back to yesterday. Xueting actually saw some kids playing at the playground. So she went over and pass the Easter Day bulletin to them. The kids were cute, smiling and playing. Seriously, I find that she's progressing well. Not wanting to be affected by those tribulations. Ting, you can do it de! So she told me her faith arise! :D Amen.

I wanna get myself some goodies! Can't wait to go shopping leh ._. But hor, Mikki know that I will overspend again ._.

Going for Tuition Soon!

Rain rain go away, come again another day!

Pissed off

2009-03-27T15:57:00.005+08:00

Wah! Finally I am a normal human. Why? Cos other than emoness, I still can feel angry @_@

I was freaking pissed off today. Okay, at that point of time, there was a sudden reminder of what Mikki spoke to me yesterday. But the anger was too overwhelming. I complained to those who sms me ._. But I didn't fret my temper on anyone, except myself.

{Be flexible, you don't have to blame yourself, there's always a solution. Think big.}

Peace out! (^_^ V)

What actually happened? (P/s: I really want to scold the F word)

You know what? WHAT? I thought I could take Bus 190 to Bugis Junction to meet Linda. Today is our final meet up, and also the day where she's paying me for her byOmbre work. So I went out early, wanted to wait for her instead. But guess what? I kept wondering why doesn't the bus reach Bugis. Wahpiang, seriously, Bugis is such an easy place to go lah, just that my memory failed me. I must think twice before I can trust myself again.

So I alighted at Opp Pearl's Ctr, which is the stop before the terminating station. I called Badi up & he saved me by telling me what bus I could take back from there, Bus 2 or 12. Looking at the board in the bus stop, I gave a big sigh. So I cross over the road directly opposite and guess what? There isn't the bus service 2 or 12. I was wondering how can buses go only in one direction. But it was alright, Bus 851 could bring me there as well. I thank God.

And so, I apologised for being half an hour late. But thank God that Linda wasn't angry with me. So we went on to the discussion. when everything was settled, I thought I had ample time to reach the office. It was 12.30pm more or less. I need to reach the office at 2pm. I recalled coming Bugis Junction from office, and I was confident that I can go back to office without any more hiccups in between.

But NO!

I couldn't find bus 7 towards Clementi Int. There's only 1 way of bus 7 to Bedok Int. So I crossed over directly opposite, and there wasn't any sign of bus 7. And so the history was repeating itself, there's no freaking same bus services on the opposite, how can a bus service only go in one direction? I gave Karen a call, and because she was busy, she gave me plain directions. Walking up and down the busy street, carrying my bag and laptop with the sun glaring down on me, I was freaking exhausted. So I tried my best to find the bus stop. When I reach the first bus stop I saw after a long walk, there wasn't bus 7. Feeling really irritated by whatever that happened, I decided to take a gamble on the stupid bus services.

I took bus 48, the bus with the shortest route, to the end. So it reached somewhere around Bouna Vista. When I crossed over, I finally saw familiar bus numbers. I remembered taking bus 105 before changing to another bus yesterday to find Mikki. And it so happened that it will pass by SP. So I took the only bus I know, bus 74, over to SP, and changed to bus 105.

FINALLY!

I reached the office. With the air con and shelter over me, my anger subdued. Phew.

Okay, I am just ranting with no other intentions. Felt so much better.

In good times or bad times, give thanks to God, He will turn the situation around.

Okay. God, please turn my situation around for me. Only you can understand how I really felt then. Thank you that it is all over! :D

1 more hour and I'll be knocking off. Going to Prayer Meeting in Sherrie's house later!

Ciao!

busy like a bee

2009-03-25T15:42:00.002+08:00

Okay, Bee reminds me of Jasmine, hahaha! But nono, in my blog now, it refers to me :D

These few weeks are so busy. I was initially trying to pack my weeks during the start of the holiday. But right now, more things are added without me having to deliberately pack it in. Is that good? I thought that is. 2 reasons for that.

Firstly, I am a workaholic. As long as I work, I won't think too much, I won't get emo for the time being. That should be a short term solution bah!
Secondly, it also means that I am enlarging my capacity. That's good!

Not forgetting to always put God first.

I am so stressed up & drained when the thought of building fund comes in :(

I am almost done with my free lancing. And I am also getting paid soon for working as a researcher and also a personal tutor. Money will come rolling in. I need to adjust myself for that. Sometimes work seems too much I hardly have time for myself :(

That's good & bad.

Work left me so little time to sms people already. Used to text many people in a day, now many sms waiting for my reply in a day ._.

I really can't wait to set aside time for PassioNaliseD to start practicing our songs and get ready for studio recording. I want to get hold of our very own recording this holiday, I wonder if it will happen. Hmmms.

Excited & Anxious!

I am emotionally much stable now. Need to recap what I wanted to speak to Mikki.

I am so proud of myself! Thanks Bowen for encouragement too! I am like reading the devotions for God, and am accountable to Bowen. Haha! I am so happy that he's right in track right now! I have started reading 2 devotions a day to catch up. So far so good. God has been speaking to me.

I hope life's gonna be better than this in the future.

I want to be cheerful always.

I love my friends, I really do.

Lord, thank you so much

work

2009-03-24T14:58:00.002+08:00

I like this picture of an office building. Want to post about work today :D

I am in the office right now, taking a break from work. I am so looking forward to wrap up my Freelancing job with Linda, so that she can start her blogshop very soon, and I can pay my Building Fund very soon too! I've got prompted by the Holy Spirit to adjust the amount I should give to the Building Fund, but on the other hand, I dread being question by my parents where have my cash gone to. Lord, you gonna help me in this! :(

I am gonna pay my sister too, I think she needs cash to rebond her hair, and that's something she really looked forward to. Hopefully nothing goes wrong. Making name cards is the last step of all. I am finishing up the whole blog this week, Praise the Lord! After so much hipcups in between :D

Karen says she'll be issuing me my pay check on the 31st. I hope I am able to get myself some clothes too, before school starts. And also receiving my pay from personal tutoring after the week I receive my pay from Karen :D

Money coming in! :D Looking forward!

I can't wait for greater days ahead!

Gonna clear debts too ._.

Lord, bring me through!

light

2009-03-23T11:51:00.000+08:00

There's light at the end of the tunnel. You may have heard of this very often. I want to give praise to God for good times & bad times.

When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.
-Ecclesiastes 7:14 NIV

Yes. It is all those bad times that make you cherish all those good times. I think my God is awesome in planning :D

I am going through some bad times now. Friends, if you see this, you may want to keep me in prayer too. Prayers work Wonders.

I am going through financial difficulty. Although I am working right now, but still holds no single cent with me all these while. I like to skip meals after meals. But I know this will end soon, because I will receive my pay soon, and I can finally clear my building fund. Just pray that I can tide over these 2 weeks maybe, might be more or less. My boss is having a hard time too. If she don't have breakthrough, I won't receive my pay either, so pray for open doors. Thanks! God is my Jehovah Jireh! :D Amen!

My health is going through a hard time as well. I don't know what is happening to me. My stomach is always aching. Not did it make me irritated, it also make me worried for it. I've got dizzy spells very often these few weeks. God is my Jehovah Rapha, He will heal me. Do keep me in prayer okay!

I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me! So I can pull thru everything!

P/s: I hope I can lose some weights skipping meals ._. tsk!

P/P/s: My eye hurts! Cos I am beginning to see the light after the darkness!

Lord, you are my provider, and my healer!

challenge yourself

2009-03-22T23:59:00.002+08:00

Your greatest enemy is yourself.

I've stopped reading the daily devotions for some time. Because I'm not emotionally well previously and also I was procrastinating. Well, I think the daily devotions are good discipline for us :D

Went to those loopholes in the devotions, and started filling them up. I need to be right on track and focus on God once more. No more staying at where I am. In the spiritual settings, it's either you move forward or go backwards, there's no staying still. So I am convinced for the past weeks I had been moving backwards.

So proud of myself. I went to tidy the devotions up, placing all right in place. I text Mikki those I haven't got from her, and am going down to Nafa this Wednesday to get from her. I asked Hwa to send me the "Points to Ponder" page and went to mass print myself. So instead of writing thoughts using foolscape and file in, I used the Points to Ponder page instead. It will be so much neater and standardized. I seriously love planning things, and would really appreciate and be thankful if things go the way I planned. Pen down my thoughts so neatly, now I am looking forward to read the devotions daily.

Went for cellgroup earlier in the day. Thank God that it's at Sherrie's place this time. Mikki asked to start Prayer Meeting w/o her first because she'll be late. But I didn't pray well. I wasn't fluent. So I was sharing with Bowen just now, I like sharing thoughts with him, because he will understand :D

The greatest challenge you have to overcome is yourself. Think about how God has changed you since day one. Thank about how God has transform to be more like in His image. I love my God. He is really awesome. I really can't wait to see the end result of me. But also, I am going to enjoy the process too! So I am convinced that I am not fluent in prayers spoken out, but I have improved, that's for sure :D

I am a new woMAN in Christ! Amen!

P/s: I love Bible Study and am looking forward for it every week! Thank Shaun that he gave us yesterday :D CL 4, 5 & 6 are those already taught in the Praise & Worship Symposium, but I thank God that BS make me recall and refreshed my mind :D

P/P/s: I am so thankful that my sister is growing well in Christ :D Jiayou!

Lord, I love you more & more each day!

balancing emotions

2009-03-19T10:52:00.004+08:00

I hate to post what's on my mind for 2 basic reasons. Firstly, because people won't understand, and secondly, because I cannot express myself well. Ironic isn't it? It's just because I cannot express myself well that causes people to misunderstand me sometimes.

My mind is so screwed up, my life is so messed up. To think that people actually think that I'm innocent or naive, but no, I'm not. I'm complicated. Too complicated I think only God can understand me. I really hope someday, I can go to a place where I can be alone. So that I can know whatever things that I do is for God.

Mikki's words kept popping in my head. People who come to church for wrong reasons will leave sooner or later. So am I? Or I don't even know, that perhaps if I am gonna leave someday, then I will come into realization. How can I prove it without waiting to see me will walking out of the church? Leave the cellgroup? No bah, that should not be the solution.

I'm trying hard to balance my emotions. Can Melancholic people stop thinking too much? And also stop being an introvert? ._. Had enough of myself sometimes ahhdeyy! :(

To hate someone hard enough to neutralize the strong love in them, is that the right way? I don't know the answer myself either. But I know that is definitely the fastest way.

How can I keep loving & expect nothing in return? How can love & lust collide unto each other? I hate it when expectations always set in.

努力的时候，眼泪真的会不知不觉地掉下来.

P/s: Ask me out people! I'm sick of thinking too much alone. Maybe fun & laughter can be the remedy for my soul for the time being :D

Lord, enlarge my capacity to love.

Result is out

2009-03-18T22:48:00.003+08:00

*Screams* OMG this kitten is so damn cute lah! *mwarks mwarks* ._.

My eye ain't that small lah, but today my feelings are so much cheered up :D

I woke up in the morning preparing myself to go to work. Reminded myself that today result will be out! I was so nervous, I kept praying for calmness. I was so nervous that I text everyone last night asking them to keep me in prayer ._.

7 months or so had passed since I've gotten my Sem1's result. That result back then was really devastating. I remembered almost giving up. Like I always wanted to maintain good grades consistently, but the first attempt failed me. My GPA back then was 2.846.

Prayed for a vision, and God told me I will obtain at least GPA 3.66 for sem2.

And so,

I've obtained my result for sem2 of GPA 3.743. Since I didn't do well in sem1, my cumulative GPA is 3.5. Got pulled down quite a lil. Most of my classmates' GPA difference ain't that big.

Another thing worth being happy about! I'm eligible for Dip Plus! PTL :D gonna think it thru!

AMEN AMEN AMEN!

I'm also happy cos Shaun asked me to write Testimony about my result for the My Life Binder! Woots! :D

I think everything is too good to be true! PTL!

Lord, I really can't thank you enough!

moodswing

2009-03-17T15:43:00.004+08:00

Alright, I'm in the office once again, trying to blog what happened this morning before I reached the office. Today was alright, no stomach ache problem for me! :D Anyway, I've resumed applying my perfume. That was the perfume I bought like a year back? ._. My nose gets irritated easily, I don't wanna be Tissue Girl forever D: I don't think it smells awesome, not the ideal smell that I would want for a perfume, but well, let me finish it first at least. I won't be wasting money then :D

While preparing to go for work this morning, I couldn't find top to wear. It is not like I don't have any tops. It's just that I have so little I am sick of repeating it so often. I need to shop for more tops. But I know I should aim to dress more Girly ._.

So I ramped through my drawer, super irritated that I can't find a top to wear. So I decided to wear a white top, when I prefer black ._. I Own The Stage top is the one I am wearing currently. Then was reminded that Mikki suggested I should try more colorful clothing. I look so dull in black. Aiyah ._. bright colors show my fats lah ahhdeyy! :(

Having moodswing. Darren never fail to talk to me whenever it is like this. I am not having PMS okay! Just don't feel like myself. Then my emo songs best suits me now. Time to renew my playlist with more updated songs. Had been listening to the same old song for 3 months already ._. Darren succeed in cheering me up. Because he told me, having mood swing is fine, but swing there le must know how to swing back. Then I went, LOLOL, again :D Thanks dude!

I never like children, seriously. That's the reason why my friends joined Children Church but not me. I joined Usher Mnistry. Like same Industry different Department haha! But I stepped out of my comfort zone to start tutoring. My only reason is to earn money to clear building fund.

But it wasn't like this yesterday. The Primary 4 girl that I am teaching now, Natalie, is really very cute! :D So when I was chatting with her, she suddenly brought the topic up that I will stop coaching her after 2 months from now. Because she was suppose to be Jasmine's tutoring kids in May. Awwww, I felt so sour inside. Confirm with Jasmine already, she will indeed take over in May. Goodbye to Natalie soon, but meanwhile will try my best to coach her to my best :D

Children are cute:D Just learn to be patient.

P/s: My sun burn really hurts alot! D:

Back to Work!

stomach ache symptoms

2009-03-16T14:12:00.002+08:00

I wonder how many of you actually have the same problem like me, I bet most of the people do. I'm in the office right now & everybody is out for lunch, so I guess I would wanna blog about what happened to me on my way to work just now :D

I would take bus 187 from Bukit Panjang, in which there's a bus stop around my house area, to the Bukit Batok Driving Center. After alighting at the bus stop there, I would wait for bus 188 to reach the office directly.

Whenever I reach the Driving Center, I would experience Stomach ache while waiting for bus 188. It will then push me to the end. Because I wouldn't walk anywhere to find a toilet, there doesn't seem to have it. So I only can depend on God. It might just be the psychological factor that causes all these, but whatever it is, I would want to give grace to God for peace.

I remembered there's this guy who once gave a testimony in church about his father (I forgot his name actually ._.). So he said, he told his dad at the very last few minutes before his dad actually passes away that, if he's afraid, call Jesus.

& so I did. I meditated on His name, Jesus. Immediately, I felt a pause to those pain and the urgency to use the toilet. I felt peace in my heart. I cannot describe the feeling well, but it was really cool & awesome.

This doesn't happen to me only once or twice. My stomach is very week and I often have very sudden nature call. I didn't know how to share this thing as a testimony in cellgroup ._.

I remembered there's once where the cellgroup went for Lapis's birthday party at his dad's condo. So when everyone left, Xin, Zack & I actually sat at the bus stop waiting for bus 180. Xueting & Ruiling actually took 187 back home.

while waiting, I had a terrible stomach ache and I rushed across the overhead bridge, being relieved that there's a toilet in Lavender MRT station. However, when I was done and went out of the toilet, the cleaner went in to clean and locked the toilet. Still being unwell, I went "oh my gosh"

So we went back to the bus stop. And it happened again. I experienced a serious stomach ache again. I know I will be having diarrhea soon. But there wasn't toilet anywhere already. I don't have cash to cab down to the nearest toilet. So I prayed, I can only depend on God then. I told God I will have faith in Him that will bring me back home before I use the toilet again.

So as I confess, God came true. It was really awesome. We waited around 20 minutes before 180 came. It took another 30 minutes to reach home. Then it came true! The journey back home is very normal. I chatted with Xin and Zack on the way back :D PTL!

So I suggest. If you all have the same problem like me, let's try to call out to Jesus! He is our peace and healer :D

I really wonder how are you now ...

Back to work!

busy! :D

2009-03-15T21:41:00.003+08:00

BUSY! You would read on if you really care. Today’s post is really lengthy (:

Wow! My blog is dying soon. I haven’t been updating since don’t know when. Let me start updating! Everything was really fun starting from Friday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOWEN!
Alright, Friday was busy and awesome! I changed my shift from working 1pm-5pm everyday to 930am-1230pm on Friday. Wanted to visit Lapis, but he couldn’t make it in the end. So we went for find SK instead! Had a great time fellowshipping!

Some misunderstanding on Thursday, thank God it’s cleared, because things are sorted out. Accompanied SK & Mikki around town before we finally settled down in Nafa. Hwa came later to teach me Photoshop. But things cropped up in the middle that I didn’t manage to learn Photoshop. But I thank God that as I was busy preparing stuffs for Saturday, Hwa helped me with the SongSheets that we need to account to Shawn. Thanks girl :D

We went to Bowen’s house, after Mikki’s meeting. Bought a cake & Mikki bought a muffin! We lighted 19 candles to lead Bowen from his house to the staircase where we hid ourselves to surprise him! It was a success!

Bowen, we really love you & God loves you too! Keep smiling! :D

Preparations
Thank God for Xin! It was a last minute notice that on Saturday the church will be having the promotion day! Mikki is getting promoted to EM, which actually also means she’s no longer our PCGL, but right now a CGL! LiangKai & Shaun called me, asking me to prepare things for Mikki. Was a little lost at that moment. Because I didn’t do it before, but well, there’s always a first time to everything. I still thank God that I have the chance to plan and prepare for Mikki’s item :D

Thank God that the My Life committee was there at Nafa on Friday. When Mikki went for her meeting, we brain stormed ideas for her gifts. Then to my realization, it wasn’t easy getting Mikki realistic item. Every time when I give her things, I think it’s kind of random & junk items, not once a realistic one. So when Shaun prompted us to be more focus, there’s only 1 thing we had in mind, a book on leadership. Shaun didn’t disagree, but doubt that Mikki is a book person.

Getting Mikki not just a small card, but an A3 size one. Xin stayed over at my house and we designed overnight. Being a noob in photoshop, I admit I did learn quite a lot using the tools while designing.

Cash was a serious problem initially, but I thank God we managed to cover it! :D

Hwa bought the flowers, Jazz printed the card, Kevin & Ruiling purchased the book & Xin accompanied me thru the night. I thank God for favor of man! It wasn’t easy, especially it was really last minute, but I thank God we did it! I really can’t imagine if I were to do it alone, without them helping. Most of them were W426’s people (:

Xin: I’m really sorry if my temper ain’t good. I know I’ve been fretting temper over things. But we did it! :D PTL!

Busy yet fun! Because it’s for Mikki!

P/s: didn’t upload the picture of the A3 board cos there’s some error :(

CONGRATS MIKKI FOR YOUR PROMOTION! & HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAUN!! :D

Slept for very short while, thank God that I have energy to go to church. JS drove us there. Wore my black bf top because WanXiu needs to take photographs of me in collar top. Serving at south 1 wasn’t easy. There’s sentosa outing on Saturday, therefore there’s shortage in man power for ushering. Only 1 for internal ._. and 1 person to each zone. Posted to south, handling south 1 on my own wasn’t easy. I cried, I really teared. I went accordingly to what I was supposed to do, it really stretched my capacity. But somehow, things didn’t turn out well, there were too many loopholes. People left after Praise & Worship, making my zone even emptier. Thank God for JS, he didn’t scold me, yet kept encouraging me. But I was really sorry I make his job tougher.

Too many things happened on Saturday. Duta & Andrew is leaving the usher team because their cellgroup multiplied and they were posted to expo services. Although I didn’t get to know them for a long time, but Andrew was the one who guides me on my very first time officially ushering. I held back my tears. But guys, all the best! Keep shinning for God! Keep smiling! We love you, & will never forget you! :D

Rushed up to find the cellgroup. We celebrated Shaun’s birthday! I’m getting his gift when I received my pay. Gonna spend wisely after receiving my pay too! Still thinking what to get for him! :D it’s gonna be fun too!

& also, we celebrated Mikki’s promotion. Finally she’s our CGL! Whoa, I thank God for Mikki in my life too! I know Mikki is really excited about the promotion! :D Hope she do like the flower, book & card! :D Cheers for Mikki!

Kai came to my house to help me with my internet connection. So he found out that it was my router that is having the problem. He’s helping me send it for repair. Thanks :D now I can use the com with an USB Ethernet cable!

SENTOSA OUTREACH!
Today was awesome, seriously! It is my first trip down to sentosa, thank God for great memories!

Our combined cellgroup today, W473 & W426 was really awesome! We won captains ball together! Great team work! :D kudos guys!
Really a tiring day!

Need to get some rest soon!

Bye guys!

Lord, make me strong.

Wealth

2009-03-11T16:02:00.004+08:00

Which season is it? This is the season of Economic downturn, many were sacked, many had deduction in pay, many were forced to take unpaid leave. If you flip the newspaper, you'll receive bad news after bad news. But this is also the time where we should sow even more, trusting God for even more. That is faith.

Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.
-Psalm 126:5 NIV

Many hearts were devastated, many natural source of income is destroyed. But still, many decide to cling unto God's promise. Many did sow in tears, thirsting more for God's miracle to shower upon them.

Thank God that my dad still retained his source of income, as a non-believer, his job at his work place. Although there's serious retrenchment and also deduction in pay, many were really affected. In the small company he worked in right now, i think more then 7 were retrenched up to date. However, the situation didn't improve, my dad was forced to take 1 week of unpaid leave every month, from this month onwards, causing his pay to be deducted indirectly.

My family will survive, because when one in the household is saved, all the household will be. My sister & I are the only believer in my family, and we really believe God for more.

So during the time of recession (known as the famine period in the bible), many jobs looked for me, instead of me looking deadly for them. I really want to thank God for his blessing. Many miracles happened in the bible, during the period of famine. Maybe it's because only til then, many would want to find hope, and hope is in God.

When God blesses you, He showers His blessings upon you.

I will bless them and the places surrounding my hill. I will send down showers in season; there will be showers of blessing.
-Ezekiel 34:26 NIV

For people who constantly seeks God, have faith in Him, this is not a season of economic downturn. This shall be a season of blessings, God will bless you in a unique way, definitely. There's only one verse in the bible that states that we can test God in financial matters when we tithe faithfully.

Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it.
-Malachi 3:10 NIV

Did God came true for me? YES! Definitely! The work I am holding right now shows the evidence. I thank God for asking me to test him in this area :D

I thank God for being a blessing to my friends in times like this. For my non believer friend, Jerry, I initiated to keep him in prayer. Now he got a job helping out in the upcoming IT fair. He thank me, and now, I am in the midst of helping him get a more stable job out there. Praying hard that I can help him get it! :D

Seized the opportunity for Bowen from my China boss, as he wants to get a tutor for his son in the area of English Language. When my China boss asked me about it, the first person who came into my mind that is eligible for this job is .. Bowen! Bowen came down just now for an interview, and he managed to get the job for $20/hr. This is seriously awesome!

Shawn is going for interview soon for his telemarketing job. I thank God that he is able to get job during this holiday. Still working hard to find a suitable job for samsam too. Thank God that He answered my prayers!

AMEN!AMEN!AMEN!

Well, I took courage to send Bowen an email, I hope he do reads it.

& also, I am going down for personal tutoring for the first time today, pray for me that everything will be smooth!

Who says God ain't real? Even tangible stuffs like wealth, God is able to provide you. Well, God don't drop money from sky, or passes you straight into the face. He opens doors of opportunity for you. Friends, it is up to you to decide. Believing in God won't short change you. All you merely have to do is to believe, and ask.

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
- Matthew 7:7 NIV

I really love the Lord my God!

But wait! This is only the beginning, I am expecting more from God. You shall see!

Lord, I am really proud of you.

appetitie - less

2009-03-09T22:20:00.004+08:00

My body is really weak, today is the day I vented my temper into the air once again. I always tried to hold back my temper, trying to breathe in and out, but today, it wasn't possible at that very moment. I always confess God is my Jehovah Rapha, I always believe my body won't be so weak. I always tell myself that I need to understand my body and it's suitable diet so that I can take good care of this temple of God, but I always failed.

I had diarrhea once again this morning, after me eating 2 containers of bochai pills yesterday night before sleep. I really cannot believe that it acts up once again. I almost couldn't step out of the house to work. My tummy was seriously bloated, I had breathing difficulties again. The thing that I can only do, is to depend on God, kept confessing I'll be alright. Tried to sleep on bus 188, thank God I felt better already.

Seriously caused me to have no appetitie the whole day. I've been eating lesser and lesser each day, skipping meals after meals, without being hungry at all.

I decided to capture another image of the necklace Mikki gave me yesterday. I really love it alot :D Rapture - ecstatic joy or delight; joyful ecstasy. I was told there is another meaning, but that doesn't bother me at all. haha. I am loving this picture! Black & White again ._.

Bowen: I know ah! But it's because I called her Korean girl before that leaves her a deep impression of me, so I am continuing to call her that! haha!

Lord, heal me. you're my Jehovah Rapha.

G12S2D outing

2009-03-08T11:59:00.003+08:00

I love this! Thanks Mikki! I kept telling Jun, I love this! LOL! It's a necklace from precious thots.
Left: Angeline's Angel
Right: Mikki's Be Joyful Always

Went to Mikki's place to visit YeJing! My Korean Girl! :D She'll be staying over at Mikki's place for a week :D So Mikki got a room mate now! I have a room mate too! - My sister! ._.

Went outing with UM G12S2D today to Jalan Kayu to have our Prata ._. Never been there before, so im thankful that they brought me to a new place haha!

Guess what? Wanxiu is like Mikki! Cos she bring her camera everywhere! ._. So she insisted in taking some pictures. She took alot, but im only uploading 2 with me inside :D

I introduced daLe to them :D My cute little precious!

Junxiang then came up to my house, finally passed Esther her stuffs, what's with those delays ._.

Had diarrhea again! ._.

Lord, let me smile always!

friendship

2009-03-08T00:59:00.003+08:00

My favorite Quote: Friends are siblings God forgot to give us.

My blog post today is partially inspired by Edward's, check his blog out at my links:D

I love my friends, no matter how things can be busy, we're inseparable. I always can't wait for a sharing session I will have with Yixin or Xueting, sometimes both. I thank God for them, really.

I remembered those times when I gave hope up on friendships, I know many of you out there might have experienced this before, but God didn't give me up. There are many phases of life, where friends come in and out. They don't stay in your heart, they are like people who stay in hotels, they check in, they stay comfortably in your heart for a period of time, eventually, they go.

Mikki was right, I am not a person who is flexible. When i reflect my past, I always blame God when friends left me. However, the time when Yixin & Sam sets in, my heart was already hardened. They are the ones who do things that touched me, but I took it all for granted. My heart was only towards the 2 girls, whom used to be my close sisters, a friendship I know that can never be savoured.

Friends are the ones that stay by your side, in good times and bad times. When I entered Poly, I looked forward in finding fun people, to be friends with them. What I showed them is what I am in front of Yixin & Sam. The difference was, they find it hard to accept me for who I am.

Friends are the ones that treat your house like theirs. I remembered Yixin's mum always scold Yixin for not serving me with drinks, food, etc. But Yixin replied boldly, a friend is someone that can help themselves in your house. It is very true.

I love Yixin and Sam. They longed replaced Denise & Julia. Although I get to know how they are leading their life now, but they are no longer affecting me. I've changed. My heart has changed too. I know I am a person who cannot put down any relationship so easily, but God let me put Denise & Julia down, cherishing what's in front of me, 2 friends that are always there for me.

I had a dispute with Sam recently, but I thank God for that. It's through all these little dispute that our friendship grows and strengthens. Mikki told me this, I should never expect people to know that I am thinking if I didn't tell them. I told Sam this today. We had a chat, although I am the one who is talking all the way. I teared. I felt heartaches. But I thank God for the emotions, because it showed I care, I love and I wanna move this friendship up to the next level. I am happy because I forgave. It is those people that you cared too much the most difficult to forgive, but I did it, because God untangled the wrong emotions knot in me.

God really amazes me. He placed people in and out of my life for a reason. And because of this, the emotional barrier in me had been dissolved, by the grace of God. From now on, I can move on to the next level, binding all the negative thoughts in me, confessing all the positive things, for confession is power, God is almighty.

No longer tied down by setbacks, I am free to move on. The road ahead is a freedom of choice God gave us long ago, but I chose God. I chose Him to lead me. Holy Spirit is a friend that guides & teaches me. When the emotional barrier is untangled, my burden's light. I see hope, I breathe freedom, I feel love. I wanna build genuine friendships all my life. I wanna love people like Jesus do.

Thank you Yixin and Sam. Yixin and I decided that we should correct each other along the way. No matter what, we're still imperfect. But I know I am going to hold on to this verse:

Wounds from a friend can be trusted,
but an enemy multiplies kisses.
-Proverbs 27:6

Only true friends will speak the truth the hardest way.

Although friends are siblings God forgot to give, but God turn them into spiritual siblings. The only true friends that I can relate to, are all my church friends, part of my Spiritual family. I thank God for them. Also thanking God for leaders & new friends that God had carefully selected and placed in my life.

I am gonna shine for God.

Lord, let me discern right & wrong.

cries

2009-03-07T08:58:00.002+08:00

I've cried thru the night again, after so long. My eye hurts, especially my right eye, the infection never goes away. I've so much thoughts in my mind, I am meeting samsam to speak it thru today. I hope I don't go speechless later. Our friendship will move on to the next level, because there's God, definitely. No, I am not emo, never be. I've learnt to move forward, really looking unto God for His purpose. I am serving later, I hope I will do well.

My head hurts. I don't know why. It's splitting ahh! I never had headache in my whole life. But now I know it is. It simply sucks. Panadol later?

Today's service gonna be awesome. I hope I am able to concentrate.

Lord, let all mistakes not be fatal.